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Thursday, March 23, 2017

Treating myself

Hi peeps.

Actually I am home again! hehehe.

Kuala Kangsar always feels at home. No matter how far I'd go, how I told people Japan is my absolute destination, and how I am fond of travelling,  nothing can beat the place where I belong too. I will always know I would come back to this place :')

Anyway, I've been working so hard for the past few weeks too. and to be honest I feel exhausted quite a few times. My sister from Sabah finally got a week break from hospital, so after a consultation with my supervisor and my naqibah too, eventually I got a week getaway from my hectic schedule which I am so happy and grateful of. There you go a family gathering featuring my sisters and Abah. Too bad my niece, Kak Opa and family did not tag along. It must be a complete and fun family gathering I reckon!

We decided to gather at my sister's house at first. Exploring dungun before we sent off adik at the bus station back at utm (she did not have any holidays so it was just a sweet escape weekend for her). From the day adik got in Kuantan until I reached Kuala Kangsar (got back today), I had my stomach filled most of the times. Chilling times for my family are enjoying the scenery while eating haha. Since mom left, we hadn't have a proper meal like we used to have. We used to request lot of foods from my mom everytime balik kampung. But now, everytime we get back together, everyone was trying to satisfy Abah's need. Asking abah what he wanted to eat is like a normal routine now. So every time it's a gathering time for the family, we always have our food planned rather than the places we wanted to cover lol.

Later on, after sending my sister off, the next day we went to Kuala Terengganu. As my sister's flight back to Sabah is at Kuala Terengganu we decided to explore a lil bit of KT best places to go. Australia taught me of appreciating beaches the most, so when I got back here I tend to acknowledge the beaches we got here. Despite the hotness I must say I've got sunburn too haha but it's okay they said tanned is hotter hahaha, Terengganu has beautiful beaches after Sabah :)

I took my happy pills :)

So I sent my sister off and got back to Dungun. Well it was just more to spending time with my nephew Abang long Fateh, and Kak Ngah too. The next day is also a day treat for me. My pampering day. I went to saloon and had my hair treatment, then I went to the spa nearby, had my skin treatment too. Hilang semua stress, penat lelah bagai tuu. haha. Puas hati kita. If a single girl like me who got no commitment and get so stressful with her life, I wonder how it goes to other people who are doing masters/phd, owning a family, being a wife, have children, not forgetting tarbiyyah manage their life. They must be working under pressure way heavier than me. So please men, it is essential to treat your woman with this. I know they will like it very much because I believe they just need a short break and her short own time to top up back their drained energy.

Tapi sebenarnya kalau Wan Syafiqa ni,

A bouquet of flowers and a box of sushi, is enough to make her day.

She will consider you, a husband materials already.
Aha!

Jap.
Tambah satu lagi trait, lelaki soleh.

Sunday, March 12, 2017

Outstation Bersama Boss

Assalamualaikum wbt

Aku selalu fikir yang aku susah nak bekerja dengan makhluk yang bernama lelaki. huhu. Mungkin kerana aku rasa mereka susah nak difahami. Atau faktor yang dulunya aku bersekolah di sekolah all-girls-school for nearly 10 years. Tak cukup dengan tu, aku dibesarkan dengan adik beradik perempuan sahaja. Dalam adik beradik aku, along sulung dan disusuli dengan 4 orang lagi adik perempuan bawah dia. Masa kecik-kecik dulu, along dah masuk asrama sejak dari form 1, makin kurang la masa nak spend dengan dia. Gap umur pun jauh, more or less we haven't done so much things together pun. So hidup aku memang dikelilingi dengan semangat keperempuanan. Nasib baik tak jadi feminist yang radikal tu, lol. Anyway, up until now I still think one gender school is the best. Nak jugak, tak kira.

Okay lah, baru ni aku kena pergi satu majlis ni yang menghimpunkan pimpinan universiti. Jadi ber-outstation la kami sebagai wakil uia. Boss aku ni seorang pelajar medic uia which aku memang respect la sebab walau busy mcm mana pun dia, meeting tetap datang. Respon dalam whatsapp pun dia, semua lah senang cerita. Kalau bercakap tentang seorang figure ikhwah, dia la yang paling dominan bagi aku, mungkin sebab dia presiden obviously dan dia je yang aku banyak communicate pun haha! Kalau macam kat adelaide dulu, nampak sorang sorang pattern ikhwah ni macam mana, tapi kat uia ni aku macam tak boleh baca sebernya personaliti sorang-sorang ni. Ni juga antara faktor yang menyebabkan aku kurang husnozon dengan mereka. Ya tahu, tak baik huhu.

Disebabkan boss aku ni budak medic, aku rasa serba salah nk push2 boss aku ni walau kadang aku rasa aku jadi bossy sangat nagging tak sudah dalam group tu mengarah sana sini. Argh, I hate myself sometimes :/ Aku risau jee kalau aku kacau dia buat banyak benda. Kadang tu ada la masa yang penat tunggu dia reply, pastu aku ada thoughts yang 'ikhwah mmg semua cani kaan'. hahaha. Emo pulak tetiba, yerla aku buat kerja kalau boleh nak settle cepat. Nak dijadikan cerita, aku ternampak boss aku ni dok selak-selak nota dia sementara tunggu next slot. Selama ni memang aku ada thoughts yang mungkin dia busy etc, tapi part of it aku still in denial state yang macam "simple je kot, nk suruh reply je" kind of thing. Sekarang baru aku rasa kesiannya dia, bermujahadah antara study dan dakwah. Cuba sebaik mungkin nak balance kan dua benda tu. Entah kenapa time tu barulah hilang part in denial state tu. Terus aku berdoa supaya dia dapat jadi doktor yang berjaya soon.

So antara slot dalam majlis tu ialah pasal ujian personaliti. The idea is you have to know each and everyone of your team untuk kita senang handle anak buah atau pimpinan2 yang lain. Dan boss aku memang a total opposite dengan aku. aaaaaaa

Aku ialah seorang sanguine. The popular one (Buku kata)
Aku memang extrovert, suka jumpa orang, friendly, playful, cheerful, creative, adventurous, and very bright. My weakness is I am disorganised, forgetful, I have too much ideas but couldnt get it organised, it is always scattered around. Generally popular sanguine ni dorang kata kuat sembang je tapi kerja tak jalan. Ish. I do not know about other sanguine, but this sanguine walk the talk okay. hehe

Boss aku pulak ialah type perfect melancholic. Okay, dia rupanya perfectionist.
Introvert dan suka menyediri based on general idea tu la. Tapi soon after tu nampaknya terjawab juga persoalan aku apabila dia bangun untuk defend para melancholic ni. Buat aku terfikir lepastu, is this a confession, mate? Katanya, kerja jadi lambat & suka buat sendiri2 ialah sbb kurang percaya orang dan takut kerja tu tak capai expectation. Okay, aku ialah manusia yang sangat percayakan orang dan meraikan every single ideas anak anak buah aku, sebab for me itulah cara yang terbaik untuk perkembangan skill seseorang. Takde jawapan yang salah, yang ada cuma penambah baikkan. Tapi boss aku pula agak complex. lol.

Apa-apa pun, selepas majlis ni, aku dah makin berhusnuzon dengan dia dan semakin faham pattern dia. Aku harap, dia masih percayakan aku & tak terpengaruh dengan mitos sanguine tersebut.

Adios!

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

Lalu, kamu hidup sebagai apa?

Assalamualaikum

Semester ni nampaknya lebih dahsyat dari biasa. Dah mula kurang masa untuk diri sendiri huhu. Tahun lepas sebenarnya sesi pemanasan badan je rupanya. Bila dah mula benar benar jadi seorang pelajar master dan perlu assist 2 orang pelajar fyp, Wan Syafiqa nampknya dah lebih matang dah. Walaupun 2 orang pelajar tu sebenarnya tua lagi dari aku hehe. 

Masa nak update blog pun ni curi curi sisa-sisa masa yang terluang. 

Kata Hassan Al-Banna, tanggungjawab ni memang banyak dari masa yang kita ada. Literally, I have so much things to do. Tahun ni diberi taklifan dan kepercayaan untuk menjadi ketua beliawanis uia kuantan. Kadang-kadang rasa macam tak layak pun nak pegang title tu, sebab orginally I am not a student from uia, jadi diri sendiri pun masih terkapai-kapai nak faham sistem dan budaya uia ni macam mana. Meeting setiap biro, haruslah kena hadir. Pembina sendiri ada 5 biro, dan disebabkan itu aku hanya mampu berhuhuhu aje. lol. Ya, Wan Syafiqa kena banyak belajar. 

Masa kat Adelaide dulu, ada sebahagian tandas yang diconteng oleh budak budak uni. Sejujurnya aku sendiri pun tak faham kenapa dorang bertindak sedemikian, padahal dalam toilet kalau dah selesai business keluar la kan. Ni ada la pulak masa nak luang masa lelama dalam tu haha. Tapi tapi, kadang tu aku terhibur jugak baca sementara dalam toilet tu hehe. Cumanya aku pernah terkesan dengan satu ayat ni 

"time is like drugs, if you have more than you need, it will kill you". 

It's so true though, sampaikan aku pernah up benda ni dalam taujihat aku masa meeting kot haha. Betul, jadi banyak la benda yang aku buat untuk isi masa lapang, cari ilmu & belajar benda baru etc. Berbekalkan semangat tu, aku bercadang untuk enrol kelas Bahasa Jepun. Nak amik semangat Al-Fateh yang mampu berbahasa 8 bahasa! Niatnya, selepas master ni aku nak tinggal beberapa lama pula la ke Jepun. Kerja kat sana dan kumpul pengalaman. Aku dah buat research dah pasal agent nak mengajar English etc. Semangat kan, so sepanjang aku nak habiskan master ni aku plan nk belajar extra, nanti senang la habis master at least basic bahasa jepun tu ada. Tapi lain pula jadinya bila aku ke pejabat uia, niat nk enrol kelas, akhirnya aku kena mengajar English pula disebabkan aku dapat request daripada officer dia. Aku setuju sebab plan aku untuk ke Jepun dan ajar English, tapi konon-kononnya disebabkan aku cemerlang Bahasa Sepanyol dulu masa kat uni, uia nk bukak kelas Spanish hahahaha. And yes, I am an English and la profesor en clase de Espanol now. kahkah. Uia memang cari tutor dan kekurangan tutor, so yes Wan Syafiqa kena belajar lagi. Kena revise banyak Bahasa Spanish. Gaji tak banyak, tapi cukup kot nak tampung yuran hostel kat uia ni sementara menunggu scholarship. Semoga hati ini sentiasa ikhlas, dan mengajar untuk sampaikan ilmu. Sebab tu lah antara deeds yang akan stand by us kt akhirat nanti. Tulis semula benda ni nak pesan kat diri sendiri untuk tak banyak blabbing, walaupun tak percaya mula2 dan rasa kurang confident nk menagajar bahasa ni, Allah dah jawab dah doa awak, sebab awak mintak supaya Allah berikan yang termampu dan terbaik andai kata dua subjek ni awak mampu mengajar. 

Begitu juga dengan usrah. Penggerak dakwah kurang, jadi ada sesentengah akhwat yang terpaksa bawak dua usrah. Ya, akulah akhwat terpilih tersebut. Perlu menyantuni hati hati manusia yang inginkan makanan rohani. Perlu bina ukhuwwah from scratch andai kata adik adik yang ingin dibina iman itu perlu ditegur kearah kebaikan. Sebenarnya, bahan usrah yang aku baru cover baru ni untuk adik adik ialah peringatan pada diri aku. Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 208-209. Dalam tafsir tersebut, Syed Qutb kata orang yang memahami hakikat kehidupan dan matlamat kehidupan ini, tidak akan pernah gundah gulana, atau putus asa, malah hatinya penuh dengan kedamaian. Al akh tersebut akan sentiasa ingin beribadat dan berbakti dengan Allah dengan ilmu dan pendapatannya. Maka setiap perkara yang dibuat dia pasti akan menjaga kesucian dan sentiasa memperbaiki amalannya. Kerana para daie tidak akan mengharapkan imbalan di dunia, dia menyerahkan segala upah dan ganjarannya untuk disempurnakan oleh Allah. Walau masa, tenaga dan duit dikorbankan, hati ini sentiasa meyakini bahawa ada sesuatu yang baik Allah akan ganjarkan. Nikmat perasaan yakin dan percaya ni hanya akan dirasai oleh orang orang yang sedar akan matlamat kehidupan dan iman yang subur dalam hati. 

Jadi Wan Syafiqa, kalau semakin banyak program & meeting yang perlu hadir, walaupun ia menuntut masa, jangan takut untuk pergi kerana yakinlah itu juga antara usaha-usaha dakwah. Bersyukurlah selagi Allah meletakkan awak dalam jalan ini. Bersyukurlah kerana kesibukan ni adalah satu nikmat. Why? Dia menjauhkan awak dari perkara-perkara yang tak berfaedah. It leads you into someone who is an asset for the ummah :] 

Belum lagi cerita pasal projek master dan paper-paper yang harus dibaca. hehehehe. 
Semoga Allah sentiasa beri keberkatan masa, menerima amal-amalku, serta dikurniakan hati yang sentiasa ikhlas dan jujur bekerja keranaNya.

Kembalilah kepada Allah dalam keadaan lunyai.
Lalu, kamu sebenarnya hidup sebagai apa?

Monday, February 20, 2017

Daehan

Hi guys.

Feb is a C R A Z Y  month for me.

Now it's time for me to at least breathe peacefully. I'll start gasping for air back after this for sure.

So this is what I'm going to talk about for today's post : Daehan/Korea

Actually, I've been wanting to go to Korea for quite sometimes. I'll pick Japan over Korea of course but there's one time when it actually came second after Japan. However soon after that, Turkey and Switzerland passed it's par. They tempted me more with the Islamic history and the amazing view of Switzerland. Eventhough Korea is a big hit in Malaysia especially up until now, I'm not a fan of kpop though, so it is not my main reason of going there. I am looking forward for the food and the scenery more to be honest. I'm not a big fan of k-dramas too, but yeah I have watched some before and merely amazed with the scenery and culture. To readers out there, this Syafiqa really loves cultural and historical things. That's the huge reason she can be sentimental. If it's the matter of time and efforts, this is the girl who can't be moved. I can get overwhelmed with such things.

To tell you guys the truth, I think Korea really doing a great job in promoting their country. Sampai aku yang bukan penonton tegar pun boleh terpengaruh nak pergi sana, inikan pula orang yang hari hari tengok cerita korea & peminat Kpop. Untuk orang yang penggemar makanan macam aku ni, akan terpengaruh bila tengok dorang makan. Expression mashaAllah sedap betul rupa dorang makan. Sampai aku bercita-cita nak rasa authentic Korean Food in Korea gituu. Dan orang yang menjaga kecantikan pun akan terpengaruh juga melihat kecantikan kulit orang orang korea, bukan sahaja kulit mereka halus dan mulus, bahkan mereka juga cantik dan hensem! Kehebatan teknologi rawatan kecantikan orang korea ni tambah tambah pembedahan plastik pun boleh dikatakan tahap dewa punya sampai tak dapat nak beza muka dorang ni original ke tidak. Kita hanya akan mendapat kepastian selepas anak pertama mereka dilahirkan, because gene never lies mate! hehehe

Anyway, it's not about I'm going to Korea any sooner, coz I have no money(lol, the amount I receive is just enough for me to live here without asking abah) at the moment and currently burdened with a lot of lab works. It's about how things involve in me, that I ended up, sending a text to my sister:

"kak yang, marilah kita melakukan penyucian jiwa. jom jalan"

I've just finished reading a book revolving with Korea. It's called Yongwonhan chingu written by this sister of mine, Kak Zulaihah. It's a good read and the setting of the novel is of course in a Korean University. So I read the novel with my own imagination. That's what I like about reading, you can imagine the story, how it looks like etc by yourself. That's when I think, novel adaptation movies can be unsuccessful sometimes since everybody has their own preference and literate it in their own way. Well sometimes it can cause a big disappointment too especially to readers who can read a book over and over again, like my mom used to do. After I read the book, I have the feeling of "someone take me there" kind of thing.

I received a couple of souvenir from my friends who went to Korea several times as well. The first one was a phone key chain which I still keep it until now. It has some sort of yellow traditional folding chain with small Korean Republic symbol. I put it on my red flipped sony ericson phone before using the phone I am currently having. My second item was a bookmark my sister gave me when she had her conference over in korea. Dad tagged along though. Bestnya! haha.

The 3rd one was given from my bestfriend safy when she went to Korea like 3 or 4 years ago I guess.It is a cute bear chain which I tagged on my softboard in my room. 3 years ago, one of my friends in Adelaide borrowed my winter jacket. She wanted to go to Korea at that time but did not own any of a thick jacket so I lent mine. She soon returned the jacket to me with another handmade keychain she got from Korea. So I put these two keychain on my softboard too as sort of a motivation, I would go there and get mine myself as well. I have this habit who would keep everything close to me so that I can be inspired and dream huge a lot.

Just recently, my usrahmate suddenly hand me over a package. She said it is a souvenir from her. When I opened it, it is a keychain from korea as well. Currently, my friend is in Korea with her mom, and my sister is going back to korea again next two months. Kak yang keep on asking me and changing her plan too. Safy did asked about the trip if I wanted to tag along but I can't as I have piles of labwork I need to settle. My Korean friend, Seungmin also invited me several times. We have good relation because of the strive we had during our Shakespeare class. Because Asian is meant for Asians kannn

This country just keep on lingering that I somehow need to add more points to one of my targeted place to go.

Untuk menjawab persoalan ku ini,
satu je sebenarnya, takde rezeki lagi.
Atau, mungkin juga peluang nak pergi tu lambat lagi sebab Allah nak bagi masa.
Masa untuk tulis entri,
How I met you father.

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Finally, connected.

I'm writing this post to celebrate a big occasion.

Mahallah wifi is finally connected. YEAYY!

These few days wifi connection was interrupted again. I have so much to update; book review and sort of things I read just recently. Also a breaking news too. This week is as busy as it seems to be. For the whole February, I literally have no weekend. It started from the first week of feb. Continuously until now. This week craziness is starting from tonight *Sigh. But after all, if the intention is pure, what else are you dreaming of instead of the ultimate goal and to be in the Jannah once you get into the hereafter kan?

Semoga sentiasa istiqamah, tsabat & kuat sikit jiwa tu.

Day by day, I have the thought of I can't keep going like I used to be.
I also have the thought of, I need at least changes in my life.
Takpe, relaks dulu. Buat dulu apa yang boleh.

Catch ya later. I will update more entries soon.

PS: I'm in the mood of waiting a postcard someone sent me over from a far far away place. Hujung dunia mungkin? haha. But then mahallah office is close today due to unavoidable reasons? *sigh again*

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Supervisor at its best

Assalamualaikum everyone!

It's been a while since I had not hit my keyboard writing in this blog. Up for so much things lately. Went home for a week, just to reduce my stress and stay away from the workload I am currently having in Kuantan. Being one of the committee in a program was not really a problem for me. But as a person in charge for the registration in a big event was the problem lol. I can't sleep for the whole last week before the actual event. I keep on getting calls, my phone is out of the battery for a few times in a day too. My nap was interrupted. Same goes to my private time with my bacteria. Everything was on its best mess.While I was having headache, trying to cool down my temper, an online sale brand send a big wave to me. Those was the incident which traumatized me enough, dealing and buying things online were not an option for me anymore. They are sick people who needs so much lesson and need to learn basic manners & common sense too. In the midst of tense moment, I am having problem with isolating my new bacteria strain and colonies. Bacteria are not viable I guess. Things are not going the right way. As soon as my supervisor came to me and wanted to ask my progression, I went all way to the bacteria I tried to culture and told my supervisor;

"Dr, saya stress"

"Eh, jangan stress banyak lagi cara kita boleh buat"

"Syafiqa dah lama tak balik rumah kan? Nak balik tak?"

MashaAllah. The best thing I've heard evaaa, because I was exhausted. 

Dan, berkelanalah saya pulang ke kampung halaman tercinta :')

Though when I was at home, it was all just doing house chores and cooking. Weirdly it was a painkiller, really. hehe

2 days ago, I got back in campus and started to re-observe my sample. No progression just yet :/


Thank you dr for making me feel better.

We have plenty of options. 
I would grad on time.
And finish this with style.

Thursday, January 19, 2017

One Call Away

Last night I slept with an enormous frustration in me.

An incident happened just recently. It was getting on my nerve and I was pissed off.

Sabr and patience works well before but then I feel like I'm holding this for too long that I busted my anger through my facebook post. Pretty much that was the climax. I get so angry that I need to force myself to sleep.

I keep on telling the same stories to lots of people who asked. So I'm not going to disclose this again in my blog. Otherwise, it would spark back my fury.

I know that you would not read this because you told me that you just stopped reading my blog.

Thank you for your concern, the kind words and the time spent this morning. Just by listening to my frustration, I am feeling better now. When I told you I hope this friendship lasts, I meant it. Well, at least I am hoping for a relationship to last.

I did not expect that the 1st thing I saw when I woke up was your message though.
And that, makes me happy.

I just realized that,
you are just one call away.