Dear 24 years old me

For the passed 24 years, you have worked hard in your life and you experienced a lot of bittersweet memories.

When things weren't on your way, you managed to get back up and fight for your battle.

You went through lots of things but eventually you accomplished your dreams and successfully graduated in your bachelor degree in one of the top university in Australia, well even the world!

You lost your strength for a while, because mom passed away when you needed inspiration and support the most but then everything were back on track. It took a little while to sort everything, and because it's you, you lifted yourself back.

6 years ago, you thought you were completely busted because enrolling in science stream was not your choice, but after all Allah knows the best. You are now a science master degree student in one of the most prestigious university in Malaysia. You are even blessed by a super cool supervisor.

You have this dream of becoming an English teacher in your school days and you thought you will never be one since you are now in science stream. Because it is you and the keen of spreading the knowledge you had, you were one of the kind now :) The feeling of satisfaction elevated you.

For the past 20 years, you learned about your faith but you never really feel the existence. But since tarbiyyah approached you 4 years ago, you are now growing to be a better muslimah every single day. You are now relying more on Allah the almighty. Keep growing and spread the beauty of this deen.

You were hurt deeply by a soul you treasure the most since you were at your teens. All those screenshots and morning messages were kept neatly in your photo albums for nearly three years. Maybe because you were afraid of missing it, but because you are this strong and this brave, you did not even open or even look at his facebook or even name to be specific. You deleted all about him and you are now completely move on. You told him that you will forget him, and now you really do. Way to go strong girl :)

You sometimes took people around you for granted, somebody who sometimes cares and really look after you. This 24 years old soul is now learning to be more appreciative. You are now free from the incomplete hopes, and now you are warmly welcoming new people in your life. You are now opening your heart again and now let's hope for a better future iAllah.

Dear 24 years old and 5 days me,

You have gone this far but still there is no promising future for you. So work hard.
Please love yourself, please concentrate to be a better you day by day. Be it your akhlaq, your ibadah, your health, your skin, your shoes, your clothes well everything! You won't feel contempt because you do it for yourself. You won't feel heart wrenching anymore thinking for other people. Thinking to work for a better ummah is the right way to do. Please don't carried away solely with a particular person. You have this big heart, do not let such tiny stuff overpowers your agenda.

#Future microbiologist is working hard
#Future tsukasa in waiting too. Eh
#Focus focus

You should read this 5 days ago.

This post should be written 5 days ago.

Not tonight. But I was so exhausted that I slept like crazy and had an unstable emotions-girl-things. lol. 

So I was expecting a one or two days delay but it happened to arrive right on that day. I thought that I would forgot your birthday like I used to do years ago but this time I remember it 3 weeks ahead -.-' 

I never give you something for nothing. Even if it's meant to be the last gift from me, I hope that at least you are left with the most precious thing a Muslim ever received. I tagged some of my fave verse hoping that it will give you some spirit boosters when days aren't on your side. Happy Belated Birthday, you. Semoga menjadi anak, khalifah, ummat yang soleh & yeah...to the one who deserved you the most too. I'm hoping the very best of you. Please take care & read it often. 

Well, you know who you are. 

.WanSyafiqaMeorHissan.  

Officially 22 years old

Assalamualaikum peeps.

Alhamdulillah, I'm a big girl now.

Nothing much happened. It was a bit gloomy at first. Dad didn't call. Mom, of course. Well, since it was a special day, I awarded myself a treat. So belilah steak and cafe latte, eat them alone and headed back to home since khamis malam tu liqa' last kt rumah naqibah saya. With no expectations, indeed received a birthday cake! And a warm night attire as a birthday gift. Jazakumullahu khair. That's really cute and sweet :) And balik balik rumah je, housemate serang dengan tepung. Haha. Berpakaian hitam itu kemas, dah dikotori dengan putih itu tepung. lol Nice birthday prank sisters. -..-

But after all, your birthday should be your reflection day right. Bila fikir2 balik. Been 22 years now. But what have you done so far? Kalau nk diikutkan, kenal pencipta pun masih merangkak2. Juga, makin bertambah umur, makin dekat dengan mati. However, the most special thing during this day was, I received a lot of prayers. Very beautiful prayer! Ada yang mendoakan untuk kekal comel, berjaya dunia akhirat, panjang umur,  murah rezeki etc. Mudah mudahan malaikat juga mendoakan apa yang kamu doakan untuk saya untuk awak jugak. IAllah. Moga Allah redha :)

'Well, Adelaide hit its coldest weather on my birthday.

It was frosty.

 It was 3 degree Celsius'

11.6.2015
Officially 22 years old.