I ran and wrote last month!

Hi guys.

It's been a while since I haven't write any updates in this blog. Rasanya kalau korang scroll setiap post pun ada ayat ni kahkah but anyway, it is really been a while kan? Don't you think so?

When I last updated my story on final draft etc, I focused my work on the corrections I need to mend and my final presentation afterwards. Though there are lots of things I wanna share, somehow my busy life restricted me to write the stories right away. Because every time I came back to my room I literally collapsed and sleep until the next morning. Sometimes I didn't even turn the light off and I didn't even know when I dozed off. For all those times that I have been hibernating from writing my online diary, I have been participating on 21 km virtual run last month and I also successfully submitted my thesis for the external examiner evaluation alhamdulillah!

Okay, this might sound absurd but you know I don't do long distance run and I found jogging is a boring thing coz you'll do this individually. However, this 21 km virtual run was so much fun that it trained me to run every morning constantly. And every time I saw my running tracker had increased in the distance section, I got motivated easily. I also felt that I need to do better than last time kind of feeling. So yeah, I have completed the run everybodeeehh =)

You see daaaat? I leaded the board hoyeah!

Semangat sangat hah, sampai aku lari 30 km last month aherher 

Tak main dah 21 km. Aku lari advance 10 km hahaha

Okaylah ni muka muka beginner yang happy gila sebab berjaya habiskan 21 km haha. 

lagi 2 orang #teamkurus kteorang takde dalam gambar

That was really fun aside of completing my thesis. Or perhaps it became a fun thing because I was stressing out with writing. 

So I also completed my pre-viva before I sent my thesis for evaluation. I was kind of satisfied with my presentation and my work since I consider it as my final presentation and that was the only chance for me to explain my work enthusiastically. I mean I've been working for years for this project and I should be doing a great job in explaining my findings to other people. I did not feel so nervous, instead I was looking forward for it and alhamdulillah. I was satisfied and guess what? My pre-viva celebration was going to the gym and running again the next morning for my virtual run assessment lol. Okay probably that was the reason I got exhausted every day hahaha. 

Terima kasih Ariff sebab tolong amik gambar dan update kat Dr. haha

Dan ya tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, 

pre-viva aku memang meriah dan mendapat sambutan orang ramai

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I took for about two weeks to mend my thesis after receiving suggestions and comments from my examiners. Got it revised by both Dr. Azzmer and Dr. Naim and eventually submitted 3 copies of my softbound thesis. My supervisor said he was moved with my 'special dedication' section and yeah to tell you the truth, I wrote my acknowledgment section after I officially completed everything. And I didn't expect that writing it was such a heart warming and moving at the same time. I realized that my work would not come to its completion without many supports from my friends and family. If I was mentally tortured like most of the postgraduate stories I heard, I know this might be impossible. So everyone my work is not solely mine, it was built and contributed by lots of people out there. Well at least to my mental health la kan? haha. 

I submitted my thesis on 4th October and flew to Korea the next morning.

I reckon that as my post-thesis celebration! hahahahaha. Bought the flight tickets a few weeks before and decided Korea as our next destination. I know that was quite crazy and adhoc but yeah I need to breath some fresh air to stay alive. Ehem, you know me well enough kan? hihi. 

Korea is truly amazing! It actually has been a week since I returned to Malaysia. But I still can't move on with Korea and yeah definitely coming there for the second time. 

I haven't disclose this yet in my blog but I wish to bring my future-someone (read:husband) to Adelaide just to let him see the place I have grew. But now I have included Korea as a place where I need to come again with my future husband. Simply because I wanted to do lots of fun things with him in the future, well that includes wearing a school uniform and wandering around lotte world! 

I will write my Korea entries soon =)

See you guys in the next post!

Aha, nailed these cool-ly!

I've been waiting for this time to update my blog.

Alhamdulillah guys, I have submitted my final draft of my thesis last Tuesday! The feeling was incredible. Because right after I wrapped up my colloquium works, I speed up my writing and I worked like crazy. My thought is solely to finish off this thesis thing and I don't want to pay for my tuition fees haha. And yeah did it. Right now I am preparing my slides for pre-viva and still waiting for feedback from both my supervisors.

I wish to update this last month since I had much much stories to share. But the due date and my thesis flutter me a lot. These two years of my postgraduate life I think I experienced a great achievements during the latest colloquium held last month:

• I was the editor of Postgraduate Magazine entitled 'Virtousi' which was launched at the Colloquium night. I worked on the layout, the page arrangement and even proof read some of the articles sent to me. I chose the concept and did some alteration too. I know it was so much works but I was really happy and satisfied with the final result. I used to dream of being a journalist to be honest, tv hosting and reporting. Hahaha. That is probably the hidden part of me. Simply I feel so expressive working on the magazine. I love it so much. That should be my precious baby after my thesis I reckon. I feel so proud of my co-editorial board member: Shahrain and the PGKOS committee. Alhamdulillah we nailed this pretty cool. 

The anonymous quote is originally mine so yeah not so anonymous anymore hehe. 

Here is the link. Feel free to read it since it's made to motivate and inspire people with our postgraduate activities :)

VIRTOUSI

• I represented postgraduate student in a forum with two other lecturers. The theme was motivation for postgraduate students. To be honest I was freaking out because I know my place and of course I am not that diligent enough to be up there. I don't even own a thesis at that time and that is the most anxious thing ever for a postgraduate students of course. But Alhamdulillah, I think I did a pretty good job in this 2 hours discussion. After all a forum is all about discussion and every voice matters. It is not sort of debate that you need to win an argument. So it was all based on your point of view. That's the beauty of discussion until I was questioned by a phd student on my credibility lol (I think I need to write entire post for this sebab banyak sangat benda nak bebel haha) Frank enough, that was the point when I think I need to blurt out everything without thinking. So my virtual friend, where were you? (I know we were disconnected for almost a year now, but you were the 1st one I thought of that time. Because I wanna do it comfortably haha)

The other two lecturers are extraordinary. Memang bagai langit dan bumi. 

Hahaha. But like Dr Naim always said, "You are nothing less than me. We learn from each other"

Those words were so heart soothing. Thank you dr. 

Also I've got so many supporters that day. Credit to Dr. Latif too haha.

• I participated in 3 minute thesis and won first place! Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah. It was the first time me showing my unpolished public speaking skill in IIUM since I left school 8 years ago lol. I do not expect this would be such a plot twist cause the champion of this competition was there too. I was quite busy that week coz I attended a training program held in Bangi before the colloquium. Pretty much I barely had the time to practice. The thing is I prepared the text early and keep on murmuring the text while I was ironing and read my text before I sleep. That's was the only time I had. So yeah, hard work didn't betray :)

• I was the multimedia PIC for the Colloquium night. So I did another fun thing again! :) I edited videos and prepare for the VIRTOUSI launching ceremony. Since I was part of the editing team, I look forward for that moment so much! and alhamdillah things went well again. I feel expressive again coz I chose the songs ensuring that theme that night could be delivered nicely. Worked well with my co-multimedia committee; Wanie! Setiap kali dengan wanie, mesti rasa tenang dan selamat haha.

I looked so pale I know. That's the beauty of my bare face. hahaha

Well, on occasion patutnya beregek la skit ye dak.

But seriously I was out of mood sebab balik pukul 5pm, 

lepastu rasa macam overused my body for the weeks and I reached my limit.

Balik bilik, took a brief nap then 6pm baru terhegeh2 nak mandi dan iron baju. 

6.30pm terus keluar dan get ready kat hall. Sempat edit lagi satu video masa niii

Okay panjang penjelasan kenapa aku keluar muka camni hahaha

Kulliyyah of Science Postgraduate family. 

I am quite reserve at some points but I am glad to meet such amazing and steel heart people.

Coz I know to get going of this degree needs more than intelligence.

Let's stay strong and keep going inshaAllah!

I think this should wrapped up my post tonight. 

Still, at this point I am patting my own self (since nobody is doing this haha) to let me know I can do the impossible. What an achievements. Good job dear self!

The frustrating 30%

Hi guys.

To tell you the truth I kind of lose my motivation to endure my normal days. I am not a person who lose to myself, instead I fight for everything I have to fight and stay strong by myself even if the world is against me. The best I need is just myself to keep going.

Lately things don't go on their way. I think I am frustrated over my research project. The thing is I have like 30% to complete so my lab work would be officially done.  However it goes the other way round. I believe that in research everything is unpromising and really fragile. The samples you have etc. When you are working in the field of microbiology, this is even harder because you can't really see anything until you run a confirmatory test. And those tests are the most heart-wrenching thing evaaa people!

I was on my way back from the lab so I stopped by the cafe to grab some food, eventually I met a 5th sem master student and we had a chat. She decided to extend her semester so she has ample time to write her thesis. I am always worry in this kind of thing. This anxiety nowadays get quite annoying and hair loss is not a joke too. Haih

As time goes by, I feel quite empty and lonely.

I do sometimes underrated myself, and sometimes I do have some expectation as well.
I am so complicated, yeah I know lol.

I think I need someone to at least console me, tell me that you believe in me when I have doubt in myself, and making me feel a lot more confident back.

Off my eye bags, pale and breaking out face. 

Smiling makes you look brighter, at least it hides 

your struggles. 

I need a booster, please.

My Post-Grad Story vs Ramadhan

Ramadhan ialah bulan yang penuh dengan dugaan huhu.

Semalam memang hari lembik sedunia seorang Wan Syafiqa. Mungkin sebab aku terpaksa spend masa lama lama dalam lab dan terpaksa duduk kerusi tinggi lab yang tak membantu tulang belakang untuk duduk dengan posture yang baik haha, bukan itu sahaja, aku terpaksa mendaki bukit untuk naik ke mahallah dalam cuaca yang sangat panas. Dehydrated sesangat sampai dah mula dapat ulser dah sekarang T.T

Dugaan yang seterusnya ialah apabila DNA yang aku extract tak berjaya. Ya Allah I've been doing that works for 3 weeks now. Alhamdulillah semalam berjaya la dapat satu sample DNA yang agak concentrated sebenarnya for a sample only. Sample yang lagi satu tu sampai kesudah tak dapat. But that wont stop or the reason for me giving up. Kena double up effort and works. Maka berhuhu lah saya membaca journal, look for the exact method bagai. Penat nya bukan kepalang

Haih haritu baru sangat dapat my desired gene after 5 months just imagine peopleee. I was quite happy that I end up celebrate it by going to Pasar Malam. haha. Selama ni makan kat kafe je, sendu sangat kan sebab dah penat buat kerja dan hampa tu yang tak rasa nak pergi mana-mana. Tambah pulak sebab tak bawak kereta kat sini, lagi la limited peralanan tu huhu. petang tu terus shoot ke pasar malam. Dan aku pun tersenyum lebar, rasa macam nak beli semua benda kat situ.

Baru baru ni aircond lab rosak. Yang ni memang I kenot,
2 lab utama tempat bertapaknya Wan Syafiqa yang sudah redha dan pasrah.
Bayangkan lah, cuaca punyalah terik kat luar tu. Berpeluh peluh lagi sebab aku lah satu-satunya post grad yang paling rajin jalan kaki kat kampus ni haha. Kat sini yang tak bawak kereta bawak motor, sebab aku tak reti bawak motor, gunalah cara paling conventional iaitu berjalan kaki. Dekat bangunan ni pun dah kena turun naik bagai, bila takde aircond tu sengsara la sikit T.T

2 3 hari ni rasa macam dah hilang upaya dah sebenarnya. Semalam on the way balik ke mahallah, sempat aku berdoa supaya ada sister yang tumpankan aku balik. Tak payah la aku mendaki bukit nak naik ke mahallah. Mungkin itu lah the power of Ramadhan. Aku dan sister yang baru nak masuk kereta tu seakan-akan ada telepati. Lepas dia masuk kereta, dia turunkan tingkap dah offer aku naik tumpang dia. Hehehehe

Tapi bila aku dah sampai bilik, still terjelepok tak bermaya atas katil.
Sampaikan terawih kat masjid, aku dah separa sedar dah. Nur ajak ke bazaar kat area bandar kuantan ni sebab dia nak belikan mak dia baju untuk hari raya lepas terawih. Dan ketika itulah puncak segala-galanya aku memang nyenyak tidur dalam kereta sampaikan bila tiba uia, kawan-kawan aku kata aku dah serupa zombie dah haha!

oh Allah give me strength to complete my battle in such condition.
Semoga kekal bersemangat dan dapat Grad on Time iAllah.
Dan kerana Ramadhan, aku akan tetap terus berdoa dan bersabar :)

Weird me

Assalamualaikum peeps.

Now holiday is over. Get back to my normal days and headache lol.

I don't know why but I have such a lazy ass this week! Having my time alone is quite addictive and at the same time it keeps my energy drained. I love to see people, but going out is not really my 1st option though because it is always hot out there. Omaigad, I sound so sassy here -__-

Perhaps, if I am living with roomates at least, I would not feel this lost I guess. I need to recharge this energy, by meeting people and going to the lab.

I should have been doing this last 3 days. I mean working in the lab. Kata nak grad on time -..- Well, I did actually. Transferring my DNA samples looking for dry ice and sending it back to the 1st Base. Soon after that, I received a shocking news that makcik cleaner kena rasuk kat lab.

Whaaattt $#%^#^#

It was early in the morning when she saw a figure with red eyes wandering around the lab that I am working in. Okay, I admit it that my lab surrounding is quite gloomy with lots of unseen corners. It is somehow quite logical if those figure could appear out of nowhere. Normally I am not affected with this kind of story. I have this heart which does not care of anything. Weirdly, I feel the other way around this time. Padahal dengar cerita pun tak complete. Entah kenapa jiwa ni memberontak takut nak pergi lab kenapa pulak ni heeeii -___- Goosebumps, please go away. Man, you've been living in a 10 stories empty mahallah before for a few months and the only level who had people living in it was just my level and only 3 rooms were occupied that time. Dulu tak rasa pape, ni dah dah kenapa gelabah pelik pelik pulak ni lahaii. I hate myself now :/

I have no reasons to get headache.

But I just had, thinking too much and isolating myself in my room. It is not normal for a person like me. Obviously...

Paksa diri untuk pergi lab jom!

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T.T

Supervisor at its best

Assalamualaikum everyone!

It's been a while since I had not hit my keyboard writing in this blog. Up for so much things lately. Went home for a week, just to reduce my stress and stay away from the workload I am currently having in Kuantan. Being one of the committee in a program was not really a problem for me. But as a person in charge for the registration in a big event was the problem lol. I can't sleep for the whole last week before the actual event. I keep on getting calls, my phone is out of the battery for a few times in a day too. My nap was interrupted. Same goes to my private time with my bacteria. Everything was on its best mess.While I was having headache, trying to cool down my temper, an online sale brand send a big wave to me. Those was the incident which traumatized me enough, dealing and buying things online were not an option for me anymore. They are sick people who needs so much lesson and need to learn basic manners & common sense too. In the midst of tense moment, I am having problem with isolating my new bacteria strain and colonies. Bacteria are not viable I guess. Things are not going the right way. As soon as my supervisor came to me and wanted to ask my progression, I went all way to the bacteria I tried to culture and told my supervisor;

"Dr, saya stress"

"Eh, jangan stress banyak lagi cara kita boleh buat"

"Syafiqa dah lama tak balik rumah kan? Nak balik tak?"

MashaAllah. The best thing I've heard evaaa, because I was exhausted. 

Dan, berkelanalah saya pulang ke kampung halaman tercinta :')

Though when I was at home, it was all just doing house chores and cooking. Weirdly it was a painkiller, really. hehe

2 days ago, I got back in campus and started to re-observe my sample. No progression just yet :/

Thank you dr for making me feel better.

We have plenty of options. 

I would grad on time.

And finish this with style.

Recovered days

My energy is literally drained.

Been trying to grow my bacteria several times. Have been working for several weeks ever since I done my proposal defense. It turned out not that good though :( 

Sedihnya sebab bacteria susah nak hidup so I can't proceed performing DNA extraction. 

Another big program is coming soon. It's a massive program, really. 

I've been incharging with Registration Committee and I found it is not amusing at all, haha. Not my thing because the documentation turned out to be too technical. I keep on receiving texts from unknown number, and I did save 100+ participants telephone number and form nearly 8 whatsapp group just to follow up their registration fees. It took my whole morning just to do this. I do feel exhausted afterwards, lol. 

Yepp, 100% energy drained again.

Anyway, though things are quite difficult, Semai Mesra went all good alhamdulillah. Never missed the program for 4 years now, I could feel the happiness when I have to go back to the program. Of course, giving back to the society! Moga Allah redha dengan usaha ini.

Fave comrades and the best team ever since in Adelaide!

Also I received my 1st ever book that I am contributing to! hehe. Actually I am quite excited with the 1st book of my Down Under team. It is indeed a very high effort for our 1st book I reckon. The book is high in quality and I believe that everyone was trying their best to produce the book. All I can say that I am very proud of  the team! So if anyone is interested to buy this book you can directly contact me :)

The book cover. Book is not so thick but it is fully coloured and 

very beneficial iAllah. 

Some of the sneak peek of my writings :)

I submitted a few stories and I hope it would inspire everyone who reads it.

Although things get a lil bit difficult, still good things do happen hehe. This book really makes up my days back to be frank. I wish to write for the ummah more in the future. Let's create another history ahead syafiqa. Yosh!

New Chapter

Assalamualaikum.

It is already past 3 days of the New year eve. To be frank I feel that 2016 was a plain year for me. Nothing outrages or nothing really bugged me like what I had in 2015. Super crazy year! Perhaps I encountered a total mess a year before that I've been blessed with calmness and serenity :) What have I been achieving so far last year? I can't see any actually. Okay lemme look back :

1. Breaking the norm: A forum speaker in intec as an Isma activist. 
2. Solo travelling in Japan for a week.
3. Biggest attempt of my road trip in Malaysia, lol - Driving for a week ; Perak-Terengganu-Johor-Terengganu-Perak
4. Sabah gateaway! Exploring Sabah with my dad
5. Snorkeling experience in Pulau Bidong 
6. Successfully enrolled myself as a Master Student and had defended my proposal!
7. Attended my graduation ceremony in Adelaide, South Australia
8. Swimming and gym (Tak istiqamah! Okay, let's carry forward)
9. Writing 3 articles in the compilation of Australian Seniors Book; Pitstop Down Under

2016 was more to a warming up years of me after settling down in Malaysia and be back for good though I can't completely move on from Adelaide yet hehe. I guess this year is gonna be a lot more challenging for me. It's gonna be a great battle I bet. It's time for my master's time; publishing paper, attending conference and much much more. Please pray for me. Another 1 and a half year to go :D

"A kick start of my 2017. Starting off my 1st week as an 

invited speaker in this pre-departure programme.

So please pray for my fluency. With this I hope I can 

share my experience as much as I could in 

the survival of a woman and muslim"

The Tiny Creatures

I arrived Kuantan this morning. Early morning, at around 3.30am.

It was the end of another hectic week. I was all busy from Monday collecting data, doing my lab works because I received a call from my supervisor telling me that I need to attend a conference in UTM. So it gets quite a little hectic when I had to rush myself packing my stuffs, washed and had my lunch in just an hour. Makan pun rasa macam tak digest je aha. I was expecting that the journey would take around 4 hours and 30 mins to Larkin from Kuantan. Frustratingly, it took around 7 hours to get there. Ya tuhan, banyaknyaa dia berhenti berhenti T.T Boleh pulak dia transit lama kat Segamat. Aaaaa 

Anyway I attended the conference on Thursday, obviously not as a presenter yet hehe. So I had my sister who brought my late mom's car to UTM to pick up and drop me to the conference area. Weirdly, I found myself enjoying listening to most of the talk I went. Well I like it when people talk about the things they do passionately. I really do :') There were lots of area of research covered from Biology to Biomedical Engineering. As I listen to everything I was excited. But later on I feel that the area of research is actually infinity and wide. Everybody was presenting their work progression and all for somehow I feel that human beings are actually just little creatures. Kerdil. Yes, kerdil. Even if we think that our brains can function powerfully, still they are limited to a certain extent. And a human being would never ever able to discover everything in this world! Not even the entire human body!

I stumble across this verse after a while, 

"Dan kunci-kunci semua yang ghaib ada padaNya; tidak ada yang mengetahui selain Dia. Dia mengetahui apa yang berada di darat dan di laut. Tidak ada sehelai daun pun yang gugur yang tidak diketahui oleh Nya. Tidak ada sebutir biji pun dalam kegelapan bumi dan tidak pula sesuatu yang basah atau yang kering, yang tidak tertulis dalam lauh mahfuz" Al-An'am, ayat 59.

We sometimes are proud of who we are. Be it people who obtain bachelors degree, masters, phd or whosoever. After all, you are still bound to the most powerful strength, Al-'Aleem, the all knowing;the Omniscient. Upholding the legacy of seeking knowledge is highly encouraged and recommended. However, Allah command us in Surah Al-Alaq to read in the names of Allah. It's when the more you learn, the more you discover things you ended up to reflecting yourself that there's no one greater than Him. 

I am still overwhelmed after reading the verse. 

Bermanfaat untuk orang lain

"Tidak ada balasan untuk kebaikan melainkan kebaikan"
Ar Rahman, ayat 60.

Pretty much, that explains the reason behind volunteerism of mine.

Cukuplah kita tengok ada pakcik makcik kat pasar malam duduk tepi jalan minta sedekah. Sejujurnya hati ni cepat je tersentuh bila tengok masih ada orang yang macam ni. Kena pulak kalau ada yang dalam keadaan kaki patah, buta dan macam macam lagi jual tisu kat tepi jalan. Kalau tisu RM2 tu, memang akan berhenti untuk beli. Kadang kadang bila tengok orang niaga takde orang beli, berhenti jugak untuk beli sebab ada niat nak support business dia. Kadang kadang rasa diri ni selesa sangat, orang lain sibuk jual macam2 dalam keadaan panas matahari terik, siap berpeluh peluh lagi. Masih tak reti reti nak bersyukur ke Wan Syafiqa -..-

Okaylah tu mungkin dalam skop yang simple dan tu juga cara yang paling boleh kita tolong. What I'm trying to say is that semua orang pun kena ada rasa yang sama. Sensitiviti untuk sentiasa bantu membantu. Tak kisah la korang nak tolong macam mana, kalau rasa orang yang minta sedekah tu scam dan taknak bagi ke, it's okay you have other better ways to contribute. Just, choose to contribute.

Setiap kali pergi memana, mesti aku akan train diri sendiri untuk tolong orang semampu yang mungkin. Kalau orang mintak tolong pun, buatlah the best dan bersungguh sungguh sebab Allah kata, dia akan memudahkan urusan kita, kalau kita mudahkan urusan orang lain sebab setiap kebaikan itu dibalas kebaikan :')

Kalau dalam pasca yang lebih besar lagi, bantulah mengikut potensi yang ada pada diri masing masing. In any ways you can do. If you have tons of money, boleh je sumbang kat mana badan badan kebajikan, Kalau awak doktor, boleh je join mana mana misi kemanusiaan untuk bantu saudara kita seislam. Kalu awak seorang guru, teacher ke or has the ability to teach ke, boleh bantu mengajar kat mana mana kem pelarian, or any needy people out there. These are the ideas I have. I know these things sounds big, tapi untuk jadi umat yang hebat, jiwa pun kena besar :) Though sometimes, it needs lots of sacrifice, your times bagai tapi setiap kali habis volunteering mesti rasa puas. I still have long way to go. Mungkin jauh lagi untuk join misi misi yang hebat sampai ke gaza dan syria tapi dari awal kita dah boleh persiapkan diri dan mental. It's okay to dream big especially when it benefits the ummah.

Cuba cari kakak manis. Jumpa tak? kahkah

I-medik team IIUM. 

Pemerkasaan Sukarelawan

Semoga bermanfaat untuk ummah

This is just the beginning.

You have much more to go Syafiqa.

Adelaide Uni Graduation, Sept '16.

13th September 2016

2.00pm, Bonython Hall

The University of Adelaide Graduate

Bachelor of Science (Biomedical Sc.)

So this post is technically going to be my graduation ceremony stories :)

Another achievement in life is unlocked, alhamdulillah. All praise to Allah for which He made it possible. Alhamdulillah tsumma Alhamdulillah.

When I first received my university offer letter, I think I was half awake, still in the state of disbelief. I was quite anxious but at the same time I think I overwhelmed myself. I still remember how I used to look up at the sky, looked at the plane and told myself, I'm going to fly up there somewhere, aiming for studying abroad. And to my surprise, I just did. Completed my bachelor degree. If ever people asked me what was the best thing happened in my life, it was going to Adelaide and meet bunches of people whom I'm gonna treasure for the rest of my life. My 3 years was never easy. I lost mom, failed in my biochemistry test (under pressure maybe while admitting it's the toughest subject I enrolled and still hate it until now, haha) and some sort of disappointment with a creature called guy. I guess emotions got me after all. Once it was interrupted, everything wasn't on the right place. Knowing that is my weakness now, I have to pay a little more attention with this heart.

On my way to the grad hall, I met my so called clingy manja Adelaide sister :') She's my girls talk type of sister.

I miss her so much!

And..apparently we had many more shots together -_-

Cuddling!

And she can't let go of her unnie 

hahaha

When I entered the hall, I feel like tearing. Reflecting on how I was doing. The toughest year was my final year. I struggled. Indeed. When I received my award, I think all my hard works have been paid off! You just know it when you can finally yearn with satisfaction :)

It was placed on my seat.

I'm part of my university entities :)

They picked up the right flower. 

Roses is my fave. 

My 1st bouquet of flowers ever received.

It was literally Spring, so I expected it should be sunny and warmer than Autumn. That was my main purpose of graduating in Spring not forgetting waiting for Ain who finished her studies last semester. Too bad it was actually very cold and it feels like winter! I think it was in the middle of season transition, so it rained heavily during my grad ceremony. Bonython hall is pretty much sound proofed, so I couldn't hear anything and alhamdulillah as soon as the ceremony was over, the sun rose after a while. 

First pit stop, the university hub.

While waiting for the heavy rain to tone down.

I am lucky and so glad that most of my fave sisters were there on my special day :)

Sisters for life, 

your forever unnie. 

Got Santhiya as well!

My lab partner on my second year. 

My used to be mutarrabi, 

the thinker, the creative one. 

She's just perfect <3 i="">

Yuchi & Nadrah <3 i="">

Been through a lot with you yuchi, glad that we've made this!

Nadrah, thank you for be part of my special day.

You're the best personal assistant ever!

Congratulation to everyone in this picture!

I don't get it why Ain still need to wear heels. 

lol

I sent my family off the next day. They had to go back to Malaysia as everybody was in the middle of semester and work. So I was left with another week with them :)

So I went to meet yuchi to celebrate her grad day!

I

Despite the thunderstorms and rains, 

we still manage to get the best picture!

The next day was the graduation ceremony of Izzati and my former housemate Hajar :)

SubhanaAllah, Alhamdulillah.

All praise to Allah for this blessing!

Goodluck for your phd journey kak Siti. you're my inspiration :)

When the '93 babies gather to celebrate hajar :)

Alhamdulillah, everything was smooth. I am blessed. 

I'm writing with the hope that I can update my blog just like this for my master degree soon. 

I have another mountain to go. So please pray for this girl :')

#prayforsyafiqa

#prayforinternetinmahallah

Aku sekarang masih lagi dalam kondisi belajar untuk move on daripada Australia dan Adelaide to be specific. Ya masih dalam tempoh berkabung, masih rasa separuh jiwa tertinggal di Adelaide. Dan move on kali ni macam lagi teruk je dari putus cinta. hahaha. Masa adik adik junior hantar aku balik, babai babai gitu boleh lagi cool, bila dah turun nak naik airplane, tetiba menitis. Bila dah take off, mengalir pula. Allah, bila lagi nak sampai ke bumi Adelaide yang subur ni. Subur dengan program program dakwah dan tarbiyyah yang sangat memberi kesan pada hati yang kering. Pasti akan rindu adelaide dan seiisinya. T.T

Aku sebenarnya baru jet lag free.
Sampai je Malaysia terus amik bus klia-tbs. Lepastu tbs-kuantan. Sampai malaysia 4.30am. Dan perjalanan seterusnya amik masa lebih kurang 6-8jam juga la sebab sampai kuantan tengahari. Masa tula baru boleh baring dengan proper dan berehat sebaik mungkin atas katil. Jumaat terus ke lab jumpa supervisor dan berbincang tentang research sebab dr dah nak berangkat ke turkey pulak selama sebulan. Weekend, program. Kiranya hari ni baru boleh settle dan basuh segala baju balik haritu. Harini jugalah bila bangun pagi rasa cukup rehat dan tidur dengan harapan internet mahallah akan laju seperti biasa. Namun harapan punah, sebab lappy tak boleh nak connect dengan tenet langsung. Bukan setakat lambat, tapi tak boleh langsung tu yang menguji kesabaran. -___- It's been like 4 days since I came back internet tak okay. Actually several times dah jadi ni, skrng baru nak luah. haha. Patutlah tengok troll kat fb, student banyak complaint pasal internet uni lol. Now here I am, using internet access here in lab to update my blog.Well, internet is essential kot nowadays.

Tunggulah bila internet dah sihat, dah boleh connect. I will update my graduation days and ceremony updates here IAllah because it's something to be cherished. It's an achievement kan, so at least in 20years to come, when I scroll back my blog, I have something to show to my kids :)

#jetlagfree
#prayforinternetinmahallah

DNA actually works!

Okay my DNA is actually works!

Omoo aiguuu :')

Hi may baby DNA, you are successfully amplified! hehehe. Happy? yeah I'm happy! At least it is according to the plan.

However, the band seems so tiny in size so we need to troubleshoot it. And we decided to buy a new primer. Aligned the DNA sequence and with all the previous dehalogenase gene in ncbi. Common Wan Syafiqa, you can do it.

I practically have a lot of things in mind but I have no one else around to talk to right now. So if it happens for someone to read this or a frequent silent reader of mine, please drop me a cheer up and spirit booster message on my facebook message so I can gather all my strength to climb up this mountain!

Thank you for reading my entry and witnessing part of my journey in life :)

Cheers people!

Can't wait

For the past few days I feel quite productive. hehe.

Okay now aside from blogging, travelling, food & cooking, I found another passionate me on working in lab works ya know. Finally the satisfaction is inside me. After several months of not having hands on lab working experience, these few days really make me feel alive. Rasa bernyawa selepas peristiwa hati tisu tempoh hari haha. Weird Wan Syafiqa, weird. Your mood swings is really something lol.

So you know when I keep on worrying how my days are heading to soon, blabbing on insufficient chemicals and apparatus which I haven't got that comfortable feeling with the science officer and all, my works turns out pretty good I guess. Even though I have to come out late at night just to keep my samples happy in -20 freezer and I have to work on weekends, not to forget my access card is not accessible after 5pm (this is so unfair for a postgraduate student) so I have to look for someone with an accessible card, well at least I know my DNA is amplified with no multiple bands. Though I haven't sure I've gotten the right size and when I view my gel it doesn't look neither bad nor beautiful, it just makes me confuse even more. That doesn't bother me to feel proud enough haha. I did my job, and it seems to work. Right?

To think it back, my mood swings might be affected by the expectation I had. When you wanted to complete a thing so so badly and you keep on postponing it several times, gosh that is irritating. So distracting that it could ruin my mood all day long.

My timeline is to complete my lab works; pcr and culturing bacteria before 7th September. Because...

I'm coming back to Australia for my graduation ceremony! 

Alhamdulillah :)

So yeah, my flight to Sydney would just be next week on 7th and I'm going to Adelaide on 10th. Staying in Oz over two weeks. I wanted to complete my works frame so I won't feel that burden I have to hold for worrying so much. 

Australia, can't wait to meet you soon :)

Dah kenapa ni

Aku tak tahu aku ni fragile sangat ke atau orang orang disekeliling aku yang agak harsh :(

Masa jumpa lab assistant tadi nak mintak signature je pun, tapi boleh rasa berdebar bila dia tanya macam macam dengan nada yang sangat tegas dan boleh terasa macam seperti tahanan polis pula. hahaha over kan. Tapi betul entah kenapa rasa macam eh kakak ni, apsal tanya macam macam ni T.T

Ada sekali tu, aku mesej je sorang brother ni sebab nak tanya pasal buffer solution dia. I knew him, tapi tak pernah pun mesej dia. He is actually a very bright guy yang sangat friendly dan banyak cakap. Tapi bila dia reply whatsapp aku sekali dia cakap, "sendiri pun banyak guna, bancuh sendiri la. aku ada je chemical dia kalau nak.." Ehh terasa iolss. Ntah kenapa bila ada lelaki yang bahasakan diri dia aku (except for my classmates and people i knew before) buat aku rasa macam, wow this is harsh mann haha. Jadi aku positifkan diri memang biasa je dia ni cakap syafiqa oiii, dah kenapa dengan kau ni nakk. -.-'

Korang sedia tahu, aku ada sorang supervisor yang sangat awesome :)

Serius, aku rasa bertuah sangat dapat sv yang macam kawan, concern kat kita. He makes me feel safe. Tapi ada satu thoughts dalam diri ni yang aku takut kecewakan dia. I wanted him to know he chooses the right candidate camtu laa. Ke sebab aku yang ada expectation tinggi kat diri aku? haha i dont knoww,

Anyway, aku ada satu konflik lagi yang aku serba salah nak mintak tolong orang. 

Okay I'm new. Aku macam sangat blur dengan system lab uia. Even sampai sekarang. Paling aku tak suka bila kena isi borang yang banyak banyak tuu. padahal consumable items je pun. Lepastu kena report kat semua lab assistant kita guna lab dia. Everything is scattered around so kau akan naik turun lab satu bangunan tu. Pastu aku stress cari barang hahaha. Aku tak tahu mana boleh guna mana tak :( Kang amik kang orang lain punya pulak. waaaah jenuh beb. Setiap kali aku nk buat sesuatu mesti aku akan survey 2 hari sebelum kat mana semua. Pastu aku siapkan mental dan jiwa supaya tenang dan supply apa yang patut. Aku jadi segan bila mintak tolong orang banyak sampai terpaksa mintak kakak ni je yang assist aku T.T Adakah ini dipanggil sebagai student master yang berdikari atau memang standard ada student master yang serupa aku ni asyik kena assist dengan orang je? Kalau kat lab aku dulu semua ada satu lab, pastu aku rasa warm je dengan semua orang sekeliling aku walaupun dorang mat salleh, tapi dorang sangat membantu dan meyakinkan. Apsal konfident aku hilang tetiba ni. Aaaaa kembalikan Wan Syafiqa yang hati kering, pakai redah dan confident. 

Pendek kata, minggu ni aku rasa serba tak kena dan distracted yang ntah apa2. I don't think it's pms either lol. I just hope things get better and I can fix my thoughts and mind. Fire up balik semangat dan self esteem please. Huu

Semoga pcr esok dapat band between 460kb and 469kb yang concentrate menggunakan designated primer yang sedia ada. Tolonglah ada band T.T

Postgraduate's life progression

Hello guys!

It's almost 4 months I'm here in Kuantan. At first I thought Kuantan is just a normal capital city for nothing can beat Ipoh hehe. Ipoh is a city which has better facilities and entertainments more than Kuala Kangsar, obviously but less crowded than Kuala Lumpur. Therefore I always find Ipoh is the perfect place to hang around and have fun with my family. Nonetheless, it has been appointed to be one of the top city by lonely planet which even strengthen my thoughts about it. When I asked my brother in law who spends half of his life living in Kuantan about the attractions here, he always put me down because he knows nothing much. I bet this is due to he studied in a boarding school before so when the school holiday came, being at home is the best option rather than wandering around Kuantan.

Frankly, I was quite lonely when I first came here. I know no one else except for my supervisors and everything was at its very awkward state -__- I struggled with its different system from my former uni and I was so dumb about the semester too. I had nooo idea what short semester is. And when my supervisor and a master student was away for a week, I felt homesick! IIUM just felt so empty without them hahaha. Now I know what loneliness is, I began to look for some new friends and trying to do something new.

Today was my first day of swimming session. At some point I am glad that I am destined to be here in IIUM instead of other universities because I know they do practice healthy interaction between genders. The gym and the pool were all genders friendly and what I like the most is the vibe of spreading positive and inspirational Islamic teachings. I like it when you came to the entrance and 99 of Allah names keep on approaching you all the way to mahallah. I love it too when someone sees you walking alone in the campus, they will offer you a ride :) And I like it when everybody around you addressing each other with sisters and brothers. Well, we do this a lot in Adelaide too but since we interacted in English so it seemed normal for us using that phrase. But I found it so special when you're using it here. It's like people respect each other more. Tomorrow is going to be another session of my gym routine. I think I started to enjoy my life here now. I feel happy and keen to look forward for my days ahead.

While I think I've fall for my current university already, Kuantan is treating me well too! Recently, I met a phd student from UPM and this kakak is doing her attachment over here. Whenever she came here, she brought me to lots of good places and food too! I went to a stall yesterday selling deep fried seafood. We had the seafood and some otak-otak and sata. Surprisingly, everything was good! I discovered good shopping places and went to a beach. My halaqah friends said Kuantan is a place to be explored so I have trust in this city now since I've seen the other side of it slowly despite of what my brother in law said hahaha.

I just hope that for the upcoming days, months and years I have to spend here, I can make good memories and be happy like I was in Adelaide. I'm not going to stay here forever but I'll make sure I have the best one.

Dan Wan Syafiqa, semoga istiqamah dengan gym dan swimming. lol

Loneliness

Rakan-rakan,

tak sabar nak jumpa korang kat KL minggu depan! Excited pulak rasa. Bestnya nak overnight rumah korang yang dah bekerja ni. kihkih. Aku rasa macam adik adik lagi pulak sebab masih belajar :')

Buat masa sekarang, sebahagian daripada keterujaan aku ni sebab jumpa balik kawan kawan yang dulu sama sama belajar kat Australia. Nak buat comeback lah konon. Tapi sebahagian lagi ni dipandu oleh kesunyian. wuwuwu. Sebab aku ni kadang suka cakap tak henti. Semua benda aku nak wonder. Sekarang bila dah bilik sorang ni, siapa nak dengar aku membebel? Walaupun aku tahu kerja lab dan reading aku banyak, tapi life feels so empty without close friends.

Okay sekarang dah sebulan kat sini. Uia besar dia yang boleh buat kau semput dan sun-burned kalau kau nak jalan kaki sampai ke main gate dia. Sampai sekarang radius berjalan kaki aku hanyalah dalam lingkungan mahallah dengan kuliyyah of science aje. Hahaha Itupun kuliyyah of science ni betul betul depan mahallah tempat aku tinggal ni. Tapi problemo dia pulak, mahallah ni dibina tinggi atas bukit, bila nak pegi masuk lab bagai tu, kau kena buat pusingan turun bukit siap. Pagi pagi okay lah lagi. Bila tiba lunch break, pukul 12.30pm-2pm camtu, kafe kat kuliyyah of science ni takde. Hah, ni part yang aku betul betul kecewa. Meredah matahari yang terik tu, kau kena balik naik atas balik sebab nak makan. Sadis betul. Peluh usah cerita lah. Lepas lunch aku mandi terus. Wahh, panasnya malaysia ini ya.

Tapi sekarang aku dah bijak sikit, aku turun lab lambat, pukul 10am camtu adalah lauk lauk sikit. Sama ada aku makan siap siap atau aku bawak bekal turun. Jadinya tak perlu aku banyak kali turun naik bukit. Di samping itu juga, aku akan membawa bekal kurma dan kismis serta susu kotak. Bila dah rasa macam lapar atau dehydrated amik lah sebijik dua.

Disebabkan masalah kafe, berjalan kaki dengan intensif, dan agak kesunyian, berat saya dah semakin turun dan saya dah semakin ramping. Aherher

I'm here already

Okay, now I'm back to my student life!
SCREAMM.

Hahahaha, k.

Alhamdulillah officially dah ada kat IIUM, kuantan dan ini dah hari ke-5 kat sini. I'm actually quite excited coz it has been awhile otak ni macam malas sikit nak berfungsi. Puas dah duduk kat rumah tak fikir apa apa. A big thanks to my sister syakira and Fateh for sending her girlfriend off to study. Fateh, you better behave more and stop showing love (read:throwing tantrum) to your aunty coz you've made my 1st day of working late lol.

Anyway, I found that Adelaide uni and IIUM has so much different of course. In terms of the labs, the programme, working hours and etc etc. Banyak weh difference. Aku ada lah awkward akward sikit memula tapi soon after that dah boleh slowly develop my adaptation skills. hehe. I am blessed with such a super nice & caring supervisor. Dan aku rasa supervisor aku ni pandai gila because he is very young lepastu very productive yang boleh buat kau doa hari hari, 'tolonglah ya Allah, jadikan aku master student yang baik dan boleh membanggakan supervisor aku T.T'. Sampai cenggitu sekali okay perasaan aku yang aku rasa sangat sangat bersyukur dikurniakan supervisor yang sangat helpful. Habis dari urusan hostel dan wifi dia uruskan. Terima kasih Dr. Azzmer. You're the best! Saya janji akan buat yang terbaik dan habiskan master saya on expected time. Mintak maaf dr kalau saya banyak blurr dan I hope our research would go according to the plan, according to what we hypothesised. Tetiba aku rasa macam nak nangis pulak lahaii, sebab aku rasa acknowledge dalam blog ni pun tak setimpal dengan apa yang dia dah buat. Haihh baru 5 hari, kalau aku dah dapat master mau aku rasa scroll tu macam boleh bagi kat dia je. hahaha.

Ada juga suara suara yang bertanya, kenapa tak buat honours kat Aussie je? Actually, the main thing is honours kat aussie sama je macam masters degree cuma kau ada masa setahun je nk settle everything. Dan kau boleh sambung phd right after kalau kau 1st class degree. Tapi kalau tak, kau kena sambung master balik dan honours tu kat tempat lain tak acknowledge pun. Dan aku nak rasa suasana baru. I'm a knowledge seeker and an explorer. You'll never know how it feels except you're living in tha place. Okay aku tak pernah jadi student uni malaysia. Sekarang baru nak rasa, which is that the point that I am really excited about. Aku pulak ada cita cita yang tinggi, kalaulah I am meant to be a lecturer one day, aku nak ubah lab kat sini sama macam lab aku masa kat aussie dulu. haaa. I'm not downgrading anyone here tapi aku nak bawak benda yang baik dari sana implement kat sini. Aku taknak jadi rakyat yang merugikan negara. Kalau nak cakap pasal impian ni, my view in life dah slightly diverted. Ah, banyaklah sebenarnya dalam kepala aku ni, aku nak buat apa. Tunggulah kalau aku dah sort out timeline hidup aku, nanti aku share kat sini. hihi

Doakan ye kawan kawan untuk master degree Wan Syafiqa ni.
Okay, nak baca reading materials.
Later gaiss.

Testimoni Biomedical Sc

Hai :)

Today is my laid back day! yeayyy. hehehehe :]
Hari ni buat julung2 kalinya after 3weeks of uni, dapat berbaring di atas katil sambil menikmati gloomy cloudy day dalam bilik sensorang dari tenghari sampai maghrib ni. Haaa. Kau hengatt senang nk dapat free day gini? hih. What an achievement, lol.

This final semester is a critical point for me. Yes, memang banyak sangat bebel dalam blog ni mengadu macam macam. Tapi rasa macam essential kot bebelan ni. Biar tenang sikit haha. Well, after going through such intensive practical for almost 3 years, I finally realized that I actually enjoy myself doing lab work. No doubt, tengok. Haa kan dah tahu kenapa kena hantar kat sini, kenapa belajar biomedic :) Yes, tough beb course ni. Tak tipu. Kalau kat sini, awal awal lagi kteorang dah kena train dengan banyak research and reading, dan presentation dari first year lagi. Makin lama, makin ter-exposed dengan banyak sangat disease yang masih mencari cure. Disease yang masih tak tahu lagi dari mana datang asal usul dia. Kira macam disease yang rare, and newly emerged bacteria lah senang kata! Makin lama makin aku tahu dah, kenapa dulu lecturer pompang-pompang cakap dekat depan lecture hall tu, kalau nak buat drugs brapa phase kenal lalu. Berapa tahun kena tunggu bagai, sampai that certain drugs boleh qualified and found that it is save to consume. Now I understand that we were trained to be a future-scientist! Hah, cool kan? bhahaha. Dulu cita cita aku nak jadi cikgu English je dari sekolah rendah, lepastu sekarang dah berubah 360degree, ya nak jadi scientist dah. Nak teruskan research, dan teruskan lab work. Gigih. Nak cari cure untuk penyakit mak. IAllah.

Okaylah.
So this time nak cerita skit what is biomedical sc as general. Kalau orang tanya nanti habis kerja apa, selalu tak reti nak jawab -..- basically, kteorang akan kerja dalam lab sbb course ni byk involve in human and disease. As if korang digging info on lotss of things and invent vaccine kee. After all, kalau korang mmg suka research and being an academical stuffs, this is exactly what you are looking for! Dan bila orang tanya apa beza biotech and biomedical sc pun sama, rasa mcm ni -..- hm, kalau biotech pulak is quite in a broad area. basically they are working with livin things like bacteria and utilize them to make vaccine ke hape ke for cure. Basically they are dealing with some tech to look for vaccines etc. Most of us yang enrol in bachelor of sc semua akan pergi ke kelas yang sama but we have different approach in tute lah normally. Student biomed tak habis presentation je manjang, Yang membezakan kteorang is major masing masing :) And korang pun boleh pursue medic after 3 years degree. Actually aku pun baru tahu yang 90% of ppl enrolled in this course are targetting for medicine which aku rasa aku je kot noob dalam dalam sphere dorang tu aku geleng2 kepala taknak medic. Patut lah kome kome ni pandei bebenor T_T

Hari hari yang akan mendatang gonna tests me quite a big.
Teruskan semangat ye Wan Syafiqa =D

so yeah, till then.
toodles

Dear Scholarship hunters : MybrainSc.

Assalamualaikum. :)

On 10th Febuary 2013,

Most probably will be departing to Adelaide, Australia. 

Degree on Biomedical Science.

InsyaAllah. 

Okay, post hari ni mungkin berguna serba sedikit untuk pelajar-pelajar matrikulasi (sy ex-matriks kedah untuk makluman, hee), foundation, A-level, IB & STPM. Haa, ramai sgt yg bertanya mcm mana aku boleh dapat offer univ ni dan sgt byk la persoalan mengenai scholarship and sponsorship ini. So here's the story. :)

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah. Saya telah ditawarkan Biasiswa Mybrainsc dibawah pengelolaan Kementrian Pengajian Tinggi (KPT). Bukan JPA ye. Ramai sgt yg tanya. Tp ofcourse under goverment. So scholarship ni bukan mcm MARA yang kita perlu bayar balik 10% dari yuran pengajian kita tu. Okay, buat pengetahuan semua, batch saya ialah batch 1st degree program yang KPT anjurkan. Selama ni, dorang banyak taja budak master&Phd je, sebab tu kalau cari pasal mybrainsc ni banyak yang keluar keratan akhbar and news pasal menda alah ni je. Tak banyak info yang kteorang dpt pun. Mencuba nasib je ni. Waktu mula-mula dulu, hesistate jugak. Scholarship ni betul ke tak. Sampai ada cikgu sekolah lama saya yang pertikaikan pasal ni. -,- takpelah kalau cenggitu cikgu ponnn. 

Kepada sesape yang tgh scholar2 hunting ni, nanti right after keputusan sem1(PNGK 3.6&above) korang cepat2 apply scholar ni ea. Basically korang perlu membuat 4pilihan bidang utama waktu mula-mula apply ; Biologi, Kimia, Fizik, Maths. Biasiswa ni untuk pelajar yang berminat untuk sambung pure sc sahaja. Siapa-siapa yang nk pursue medic, pharmacy, engineering, dietitian(Course terchenta..), Silalah lupakan hasrat anda untuk apply scholar ni. Scholar ni aim&objective dia adalah utk research&noble prize bagai. Lepas habis belajar nanti we are tied with the goverment for 5years utk jadi tenaga pengajar kt certain institution. Kira okeylah kan. Habis belajar je dah ada kerja dan kalau tak suka mengajar pun just for 5years lepas tu boleh cari kerja lain haa :)

Time nak apply mybrainsc ni, mcm2 kita kena submit. Sijil la, gambar passport la. Dann, satu yang paling penting sila pastikan korang letak email yang valid masa apply. Semua updates dan perkembangan terkini dorang akan hantar pkai email. Dulu pun saya ni bukan jenis yang check2 email sgt. Dapat tau pun lepas member call kata dapat email etc tak? Sekarang barulah nak merajin2kan diri check email je. muehehe. Lepas apply isi borang sume2 tu la kan secara online, sesiapa yang terpilih akan undergo ; ujian saringan ukm (online IQ test), kalau lepas baru dipanggil untuk interview. Online IQ test ni tak susah pun, korang kena jawab selama 1jam, tp soklan dy lama-lama buat tension jugak. Merapu2 jek. HAHA. So lepas tu, kalau lepas, here comes the interview. Dulu dorang akan buat 3 tempat. Kt putrajaya utk belah2 selatan, USM penang utk belah2 utara n UMT kt belah2 pantai timur tu. Dari 350 orang yang pergi interview, dorang shortlisted kan kepada 200 orang. 150 orang untuk local university, lgi 50 untuk oversea student. Untuk yang local univ, sbb sistem negara kita dah ada upu tu, so senang je. requirement univ sume dah ada. hantar sahaja surat tawaran univ trus kt dorang sbb mula2 akan dpt conditional offer dulu. Oversea student susah skit la. Mcm-mcm benda kena settle. Sbb registration kita yg kena handle, dorang hanya akan uruskan biasiswa sahaja. Mostly, syarat2 biasiswa ni sama mcm JPA. kena maintan pointer ats 3.0. Kalau fail 3x, biasiswa akan ditarik balik. Ini yang menakutkan. Tak suka dengar menda-menda cmni. 

Telah ditagged oleh kak Nurul Aain. Thank you kak ain yg sgt2 friendly ni!

Sangat tak sabar nak jumpa akak yang super duper kelakar dan menarik. :)

"Dear brothers&sisters, teachers&friends,

All I'm asking is for your Du'a and Prayers,

Every single of 'em means a lot to me,

I am just a person who is weak and afraid of failure too,

Deep down inside I am nervous and feeling all sweaty 

thinking about how people would look upon my religion and race 

because I am Muslim yet an Asian too.

I am aiming on practising the teaching of Islam & science as well.

However I believe in the power of Du'a, 

I believe that whoever relies on Allah, he'll find the way.

I believe that Allah is the closest one when 

everything is wrong and everything seems not right"