2020 wishes :)

Every time new year comes, it always feels as fresh as usual.

Good vibe and beautiful spirit :)

As a tradition in my blog I would write what I've been through the whole previous year.

But last year I abandoned my blog quite a lot because I stopped using my laptop frequently coz I am totally done with my master degree. Yeayy alhamdulillah. I wanted to write my graduation story, viva story, my bfg story. I wanted to compile them all in my blog. Times aren't always there for me actually. I don't even know why. Haha. After all, I need to write my grad story shortly. But I would hold it for now. Maybe in a few days or time, I would. 

I called my 2019 as a 50/50 year. It's the year of creating new dreams. Not only my study milestone. 

Half of the year, I spend most of my time in Kuantan, and the other half is in my hometown. I live my life as a home full timer for now before I pursue my PhD. I think my rizq is there, instead of working. I've been thinking about it hard, and I hope things go well iAllah.

I found the other side of me last year when I lived in Kuala Kangsar for sure. The artistic part of me which I don't usually utilized hahaha. I also developed some dreams that I think might sounds relevant for me. It started because I wanted to find a decent muslim cafe for a reading and good coffee while waiting for  my dad's appointment. Unfortunately, I don't find one. The idea just popped up and I hope I can turn it into reality one day. 

I love good coffee, sables, breads, cakes and books. So I wanted to make one with good ambience, comfortable so that everyone who love their own time could come and find serenity and peace. I am obsess with cute and beautiful food. I am not a sweet eater actually hahaha but I just love the way how it looks. I know I am a big fan of food but the idea of creating cafe is a good thing coz I am someone who love to chill alone with my laptop, books and coffee.

I also develop my interest in skincare nowadays. I even thought of pursuing my PhD in skincare line so that I can develop my own skincare line, creating my own brand and packaging. Thinking about festival/seasons where people could celebrate their time with their loved one with my brand line for gifts at affordable prices. I wanted to create something as good as the korean skincare I am using. Lol, this is the confession of a acne prone skin girl who just got her skin healed after using wrong products. 

Since I am working a lot with bacteria and microbes, I am thinking to create a probiotic drink from my own strain. Cool tak? hahaha. This popped up sebab yakult selalu ada dalam fridge rumah which I enjoy drinking it so much loll.

After so much years of hectic lab and thesis writing, I finally have my own space to think about something cool. I can dream again finally hehehhe. This time, it is not the dreams that I have in highschool; to be a lecturer or having PhD etc, but it is something I love badly and wanted to share it with other people. I wanted to make people fall in love with things I have in mind :)

Pray for me.

My Keyboard is Back!

Finally I got my keyboard back!

Ya Allah I've been abandoning my blog for a few months and I miss writing very very much.

Lepas submit hard-bound thesis terus dengan lappy-lappy aku abandon bhahaha.

So many things happened and I've been fermenting stories now haha. Dah boleh jadi ikan kering agaknya. My sole thought was actually to update my viva stories, how I think people around me supported me so much when I lost myself. I wanted to update the warm wishes people around me gave, how I've been collecting memories and photos before I left Kuantan for good.

However, things got pretty busy over here. I submitted my hard-bound thesis on the 1st week of Ramadhan and began to focus my ibadah and deeds during the month. Then, Shawal came. Shawal was pretty harsh and brutal. So many houses to visit and so many people I need to catch up but it was really reviving and I think Shawal really connects people alhamdulillah.

The past two months was quite a 'phewww' too. Two of my cousins were engaged and another marriage in my big family! So I went back and forth (honestly I didn't help much on the preparation like what I did to my sister). All I did was more to driving, accompanied my sister attending her interview while I had nothing on my list right now. For your info, I was offered a phd program in Korea but yeah I declined due to several circumstances. Now dah rasa kenapaa la aku pegi decline sebab dah bosan hari hari masak je kat rumah hahaha. Anyway, I believe that there's always beautiful hikmah and reasons why Allah want me to rest and serve my dad for now.

For the interval that I was not writing and updating stories, my laptop was on 'idle' mode since my keyboard was not working at all. Turn off sangat nak update resume and other things haha. So I keep on procrastinating, then lepas baik laptop, the girl in store told me that I need to back up all my document before my hard disk go off. She said my hard disk is turning bad. Pastu mood aku pun macam tak best sebab aku paling tak suka barang penting rosak, rasa macam serabut tau T.T. But I told myself numerous time my laptop just needs services since it's getting old now. Kalau boleh rasa macam nak settle phd with this laptop since my mom hadiahkan for my studies in Adelaide and now I've completed my master degree with the help of my laptop. Thank you so much mak, I hope every letter that I used to write using the lappy you gave me, it's equivalent to the reward that you receive. Semoga pahala mak berpanjangan.

I have nothing else to update. But this is something that I am so proud of.

It's not about me, but it's about the team.

Tahniah adik adik ku! I am so happy to see you guys finally growing.

Alhamdulillah tsumma, alhamdulillah.

Where are you at?

Hi guys. 

I am currently trying to finish off my thesis correction for quite sometimes. I don't know what happen to me recently but it seems like I lost my motivation. 

I feel so burden and heavy trying to finish this. It's been nearly 20 days since my ptem but I just couldn't grasp myself back. I feel like talking and going for a sip of coffee. 

Well, I did but this burden does not go away. It stays and I don't know what to do. 

Maybe I need someone else who I can blurt everything out in the most comfortable way? I don't know. 

Mujahadah sangat ni dah kenapa? T.T

Anyway, I have a confession to make.

Okay dah boleh pasang lagu thousand years - Christina Perri hahahaha

Wait. yeah. I am serious. Turn that on now. 

Dah pasang? 

Well, here it is...

I chatted with someone who listened to me so well once upon a time. The last time that we keep in touch was on January 20th 2017. Ever since, I never heard about that particular person anymore. I was left hanging knowing nothing about his uni, face and his details. The only thing I knew was he is from Segamat, Johor and studied physics education in a local university. I am always curious about his where about because his timing is always different. I woke at 5am having my sahur on my Monday and Thursday puasa routine but I would always found him actively online. One big fact that I would always remember was him telling me couples of times that he did not want to fall for anyone. But to tell you the truth, I did several times. Although we were sort of like just talking about life, virtually. But I am glad that it didn't became a big thing though since somehow he could be so comforting at times. I remember him picking a maroon abaya over the purple one coz he said I might look better in maroon. I did not manage to buy it because it was out of stock, but then I picked a maroon blouse when I attended a conference in Johor last time. I uploaded myself wearing the maroon blouse, for certain reason I wanted him to notice me in maroon but too bad he had deactivated his fb waayy before that. In the chat that I scrolled back, we told each other that we would miss chatting like this, I don't know about him but I always do. When I wrote about wanting someone to listen to me, it would always remind me of him. He told me that I could have known him more when the time is right. I am actually kind of waiting and still curious though years might have passed.

I would always remember you this way.

Or is it perhaps, the time would never be right?

*I wish I could reveal his actual name here. But I choose him to remain anonymous and let this stays between me and him, only.

Youtube is life

I practically live with my laptop these few years and I don't watch TV. 

I started to ditch the tv programmes when I live abroad sebab tv aussie tak best, setiap state channel lain lain (punya besar aussie sampai begitu sekali) dan rumah memang takde tv pon masa tu ehek. So there are so much things ongoing on the tv which I do not bother lol. And I carry away that habit until now. I even do not know how to switch on the tv at my home anymore haha. 

When I live with my gadgets and laptop, my entertainment is solely YOUTUBE! I love youtube so much since I can practically choose what I want to watch by type in! haaa mudah, hujan pun line clear boleh stream video lagi heee

So here are some of my all time fav youtubers and channels if you want to kill your times and grab some entertainment online :)

First, I would say Joan Kim! 

Below is her recent video on her main channel.

I started watching her when I had a terrible breakout and as I was searching for important ingredients and products to get rid of my acne at first. I really enjoy her editing and how she talks about her skincare routine and stuffs. She's a beauty blogger and what I enjoy the most is to see her vlog on her daily life. The cafe she choose and the food look so appetizing! She's good at hosting it and she always think of something new for her channel. Recently, she launched a night and day cream collaborated with Neogen which is Neogen X Joanday. Seeing that and listening how she get far at  this point  makes me so proud of her :') I was excited for the cream and I would loooveee to try her night and day cream! Since I have so much things to try now, I would probably wait for it and till I get extra money, would definitely purchase one. She had a 365 days of  Joanday before and she basically vlog everyday! That was last 2 years and last year she had 100 days of series and I am still waiting for her next vlog project in 2019. Her second channel was packed with lots places in Korea, and her friends too, so indirectly I've got to know her friends too, lol. 

One of Joanday episode! 

My second pick would be, Mark Wiens!

Here is one of his best 2018 food review.

Oh my god, he really knows how to eat! I am a foodie. I love eating so much and yeahhh his food review really keeps me drooling. I love his shirt written I travel for food very much coz that was basically what I did too hahahaha. Mark eats so much I think so I don't get it why he stills so skinny T.T If it's me, I might gain lot of kgs, and had trouble to loose my weight back. Some people have diff tastebuds, but I guess he has the asian tongue when he enjoys eating spicy food etc, so what he usually eat in the video makes me want to try them too :)

Thirdly, I would say Maangchi!

Here's one of her video on making gimbap/kimbap

Well, I started to watch her cooking when I was in Adelaide. My housemate used to love korean food so much and there were tons of Korean markets when I was in Adelaide. So I tried to find recipes in youtube and finally discovered her channel. Later I watched lots of her videos although I do not have the intention to make them because I love watching her cooking videos since the editing was super nice and the food looks so tempting! I have tried 4 recipes from her channel, which are gimbap, dakjim, hotteok and japchae. Honestly, they all turned out pretty well! Glad that my friends love them. 

Fourtly, it would be Blimey!

Blimey is my fav fav fav channel after Joan :)

Blimey has a fandom now, and it is called Blimers. I am proud to say that yes. I am A BLIMERS! hahahaha. Omg, these girls are so fun to watch! I mean they are just like nice korean girls who keep on making videos on Malaysia and Korea. Other than food, I appreciate culture very much. So when they started to make videos and compare it with both culture, it is very informative and fun to watch. If I have to choose to hang out between joan and blimey girls, I would probably say blimey because joan is like another level of standard haha. Much probably because she grew up in USA before. But these girls are just warm to watch and they seem like my go to friends haha. So fun and humble to begin with heheh. 

The last one is still another food vlog. Honeykki :D

One of her what I eat in a day episode. 

Whenever I feel like eating or cooking something I would start to look for its own recipe. So I think I discovered this channel when I was looking for a korean fried chicken recipe. Her video is quite a satisfaction actually. It's a different style with maangchi in terms of the editing and video style. But her what I eat in a day episode is so good to watch. I love looking at what she cooks coz the sound of cutting and frying really gets me into the video. If I have my own kitchen now, I would probably cook a lot or starting my own food blog aha! 

These are my top 5 youtube channels that I love watching. I normally get so excited when Joan and Blimey videos are up nowadays. But before I got so into them, I usually spend my time watching the food videos so much. So if you guys are bored and wanting to watch something light and relaxing, go and explore youtube! There are tons of youtubers would make your days better other than solely dramas and movies. Since I lose sparks of watching dramas and movies, I usually go for youtube and explore more if I have the time. So yeah, check out my fave youtubers then!

Happy watching!

2018 self-claim achievements

Happy New Year everyone!

I'm sorry I break my promise as I did not finish my Korea travel story on December. I went home last week which I did not intend to, so my schedule on writing blog just went all over the place. I've saved half of my writing but did not manage to publish them yet.  

While we are still at the heat of celebrating new year, I may want to take this chance to look back at the unlocked achievements and some of the things I learnt throughout 2018. I think this is like the tradition in my blog now, to look back at the previous years and to reflect back is a huge and important thing to do, at least for me. So skipping my travel story is not a big deal for now ehehe. I don't write much on my facebook, but I do blabbering a lot in my blog. I guess people who are still learning about me through blog posts are some cool creatures and extraordinary! You are really one of the kind. Thank you for reading and witnessing the important things happened in my life :)

Anyway, let's look closer to the year of 2018. Lemme summarize the past few years ever since I think I am back to blog with another phase of life. 2016 was the buffering year for me, coz lot's of thing changed as I experienced a huge transition from Australia to Malaysia, from bachelor degree to Master degree programme and came to unexpected place etc, 2017 was indeed the year of me to understand and grasping life better. I learnt the meaning of persistence & motivation to pursue your study, I started to realize the real meaning behind commitments, and wealth does not mean you owning a huge amount of money, but being happy is the ultimate goal in life. 

I would say 2018 was not that plain, but I achieved quite lots of things last year. 

1) I successfully completed my thesis writing on October!

This is the most highlighted part of 2018. A lot of people are complaining about writing thesis. Well, I was not excepted from this but the determination I had was totally insane. 3 months of writing it felt like a throwing up journey, but once I set my mind I just did not know to stop. Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah. I've done the most crucial part in research, I am still waiting for my thesis evaluation, so please pray for it :)

2) I have actively participated in 2 virtual runs & a netball tournament AND I LOVE IT!

I love experiencing things especially when it has to do with your physical interactions. Well, I don't realize this at first but I was an athlete when I was young, I learnt quickly on dance movements but my potential on sports haven't been polished for quite some times. Pretty much that explained why I love virtual run. I am now been using Nike Run Club to track my daily exercise routine. Please add me up if you guys are using the same apps: Syafiqa Tsukushi is my id. Anddd the netball tournament was actually grilled and roasted for my team hahaha, but I didn't expect I did quite better than anyone else and played center position kayhhh. haaaa. 

3) I received quite a number of invited speakers, panelists and MC invitation

I am quite well known for an outspoken person for certain reasons, lol. But I think I didn't quite reveal my true color ever since I left school or even Adelaide. But last year, I received tons of invitation especially in IIUM to voice out the postgraduate opinions in a forum, being MC for symposiums and several general grand meetings held in Kulliyyah of Science. One of the biggest achievement I had so far was presenting a pretty heavy topic: pedophile to the primary school students. It needed patience and creativity to handle them and I think I did pretty well though I lost a bit of my voice after the session lol. Good job Wan Syafiqa. *Patting my own back* 

4) I successfully edited the whole postgraduate magazine VIRTOUSI!

Omg, this is quite an achievement for me, alhamdulillah :) I always feel that I do have the talent to design a little bit, but I always felt incompetent enough whenever it comes to designing. Since I usually tell people my honest opinions for some designs etc, and yes some of them do not meet my expectation so much. Though that was the case, I don't talk about it a lot because I want to appreciate their effort the most so I usually keep quite. It was different when I was in Australia, my team mates made great designs and they always beyond my imagination to be honest. But it is different here, so I told myself why don't I tried to make one and we'll see how it goes. I do feel satisfaction because it really fit my tastes lol, obviously coz I created it but I received numerous compliments from the people who read the magazine and it made me feel so happy. So at least, I proved myself that self-insecurity is not needed here :)

5) I learnt to take care of my skin in a real deal!

You guys may be knowing that I struggled a lot with my breakout on the end of 2017 I guess. So early this year I made a lot of notes on the ingredients that I need to concentrate to get rid of my acne and after 5 months I did reduce them 80% and I am so glad after a real hard work searching for the right skin care. So I shared a few of my empties on this blog and I plan to write another empties sessions soon coz my skin improved a lot way better than before. I appreciate my skin better now and I often pay much attention whenever it comes to skin care routine. So stay tune for the next post on my skin care products!

6) Travel updates: 3 vacations last year.

Woot woot, I love travelling and I know everyone knows I do. So I went to Bandung, Indonesia early of the 2018. Seoul and Jeju Island in Korea and the end of 2018, and also Kuching, Sarawak in the middle of 2018. I enjoyed them so much that I feel like I wanna spend my whole life tracing the world! hahaha. Anyway, this year, I'll be starting off with Tawau, Sabah on mid January soon. I'm gonna fly to Semporna to meet my ex-housemate whom I miss so much! It'll be a reunion of Shipsters with Hajar and Kak Mas. Too bad that Ain can't join us along. But I'm looking forward to meet her and her baby Medina once they touch down Malaysia soon!

Last year, I talked a lot about how 2017 changed my views on certain issues. But this year, I think there's a lot of things that I manage to achieve and share with you guys. I will consider 2019 is another challenging year coz I think there would be another transition of life I need to experience. I am now in a job hunting and scholarship hunting for my phd. I hope for better days ahead and everything would fall in the perfect place and time. Be it my phd, getting a job, well yea even getting my future Tsukasa ;)

Adios! 

BTOB - Missing you

Hi.

I literally fall in love with a song at the first heard.

In which when I read the lyrics, it literally tells you the untold story of mine.

I never knew this boy group at the first place anyway but the song and lyrics are on point.

Presenting, the heartfelt of missing you.

Dear Wan Syafiqa,

Let's stay focus and cool.

Ps: I'll talk about my Jeju trip soon.

Life update!

Hi korang.

Salam Syawal ke 16!

Dah raya ke-16 dah, baru nak update blog yek. Hihi. Macam biasa la, kalau kat rumah memang bukak laptop pun tak sempat. Thesis satu chapter pun tarak! Confident je haritu sebelum raya nak bawak balik kerja, adalah alasan tak buat kerja rumah sangat. Takde makna nyaaa hmm

Tahun ni happy juga sebab dapat cuti raya lama. Sampai 2 minggu aku cuti hah. Start seminggu sebelum raya dah balik rumah. Pick up kak yang kat airport yang baru balik dari Bangladesh dan terus shoot balik rumah. Aku balik dah culture shock dengan kondisi rumah sendiri. Dah kenapa macam tongkang pecah? Urut dada sekejap haha sebab aku tahu aku yang kena settle semua tu sorang sebelum semua orang balik kampung wuwuwu. Disebabkan banyak sangat benda yang kena cover kat rumah tahun ni aku tak buat kuih langsung. Pecah tradisi rumah takde kuih dan of course tenat kondisi kuih kat rumah aku. Siap pesan kat kakak ipar balik ni bawak kuih banyak2 je, takyah bawak benda lain haha

Anyway, tahun ni sejujurnya Ramadhan aku agak kurang pencapaian macam bulan puasa yang sebelum ni. Sebab aku dah mula pening dengan thesis dan menghabiskan masa aku untuk paper dan journal. Cumanya jihad aku untuk mengawal portion makanan terlaksana dengan baik sekali di bulan Ramadhan ni! Gais aku dah tinggal semester last dan dalam proses menyiapkan thesis. Bangga tak dengan aku? Haha aku pun tak sangka dalam kepenatan aku memerah otak dan berjuang dalam lab, dah nak sampai penamat dah perjalanan master aku ni :')

Kurang tulis blog pun sebab tulis thesis dan article banyak sangat rasanya lol. Lagi dua minggu Kulliyah aku akan buat colloqium dan committee aku sekarang tengah sibuk mengeluarkan article untuk pelancaran majalah Postgraduate-zine/PG-zine. Ohooo so much things to do in this short time kan?

Aku tak berniat nak update secara detail hari raya haritu. Saje nak update apa yang berlaku dalam hidup lately. Cuma tahun ni apa yang aku belajar, raya memang medium yang terbaik untuk mengeratkan silaturrahim. Yang tak pernah bertandang rumah, tetiba muncul, dan masa tu la boleh kenal family kawan-kawan kita etc. Kalau masa lain, awkward kan? Itulah istimewanya Syawal. Kalau ramadhan masa kita hanya dating dengan Allah, tapi bila Syawal, masa untuk meraikan manusia dan orang sekeliling kita. Cantik Allah susun =)

Okay sebelum aku berundur aku belanja la satu gambar Syawal :D
Just so you know I am still here, alive and busy. As always hihihi.

Tahun ni full semua ada!

Selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin :)

Off to my data analysis & open house co-sv jap lagi. 

Toodles!

Still Alive

Hi korang.

Lama dah tak update blog. Literally busy. Biasalah kan, alasan yang sama haha. Tapi sungguh, tak menang tangan tau. One of the reasons blog aku unattended, I was up for an adventure for nearly a week! Jadi, sebelum up for such adventure, haruslah aku seorang zombie hidup siapkan lab work. Sampai ke malam stay up nye.

Anyway, aku develop minat baru.

Browsing flight ticket sambil tengok budget hotel. hahaha. Entah apa yang merasuk aku lepas balik dari China ni. Alhamdulillah, I feel expressed. Pergi negara orang, talk to the locals, tried their own local food, semua tu buat aku hidup. I feel so alive. Tak tau nak describe macam mana, tapi subhanaAllah hati aku macam jatuh cinta dengan 'tarbiyyah jaulah' ni. Rasa macam nak plan trip all over again.

Sebelum ni aku fikir, kau minimize je la cerita kat orang pasal trip kau pergi sana sini. Tunjuk gambar satu dua cukup. Nanti orang kata menunjuk pulak. Wild thoughts were on me. Sampaila aku baca satu artikel kat halaltravel.com. Aku macam terwow dengan artikel tu. Dia kata you can benefit the ummah by travelling dengan bagi review, tips dan doa.

Waaaahhhh, aku terpukul kejap. Kenapalahh tak terfikir. Padahal aku ada je medium nak share. Overloaded tips sebab setiap kali travel, aku yang plan. Bajet semua aku kira, sebab aku nak rasa yang aku travel ni worth it. Bila dah tak mewah macam study kat adelaide dulu, cenggini la jadi haha

Aku ni light traveler. Budget hotel doesn't hurt. As long as ada tempat berteduh, boleh tidur aku okay. In my next post, I will post more on my China adventures and share some tips with you guys. I will iAllah in a diff post.

I will try my best to share as much as possible. I am writing now to tell my readers out there that I am still alive and will continue writing hehe.

So guys,
See you in my next post!

Travel buddies in China

&

Summer in China was crazy!

Dad's Love

Aku tak tahu what happen lately, tapi aku dah terjebak dengan reality show 'The Return of Superman'.
Rasa macam mampu berhuhuhu je kan? haha

Anyway, for me it's a good Tv show reality.
Sarat dengan parenthood tips dan segala macam lagi. Aku rasa kat Malaysia pun ada jugak buat ala ala TROS ni, anak celebiriti macam Awal & Scha tu. Entah kenapa yang tu tak menarik perhatian aku sangat. Ya Allah, double standard pulak aku ni.

Rancangan ni buat aku feeling betul. Kalau bebudak tu/bapak budak tu buat something yang touching2 dah mula kelopak mata aku berair sikit sikit haha. Mungkin jugak rancangan ni fokus lebih kepada bonding antara anak dan ayah yang buat rancangan ni special bagi aku. Lepastu tengok akal budak budak ni, kiuttt sangaaat. Setiap kali tengok, setiap kali tu lah melting. Kadang-kadang pecah perut aku gelak sorang sorang tengok gelagat dorang. Dah la comel pandai pulak tuuu, acik geram tahu taaakk? Tetiba aku beracik pulak.

Salah satu sebab aku macam terkesan dengan TROS ialah macam mana setiap ayah dalam dunia ajar anak anak erti kehidupan from scratch. Macam mana dorang bentuk adab, protect anak anak dorang yang buat aku terharu at times. Sama macam Abah. Without realizing, abah banyak ajar anak anak dia macam mana nak survive dalam hidup. Aku tak pasti sama ada aku yang makin membesar (baca:matang) atau sejak arwah mak takde, abah semakin ambil berat dengan anak anak dia. Kalau dulu semua benda kena lalu mak dulu, bukan sebab tak rapat dengan abah tapi eventually mesti akan refer mak dengan semua perkara. Literally, aku rasa mak dah macam orang tengah untuk semua benda. Dan mostly abah akan tau semua dari mak.

Benda paling obvious bila tengok Abah banyak main peranan untuk ajar 'what life is like' kat adik bongsu aku. Adik aku tu pun walau dia dah umur 22 tahun, abang kakak aku semua risaukan dia. Dari kecik terlampau manja. Banyak benda kakak kakak dia yang buat. So dari bawak kereta, macam mana nk potong ayam, siang ketam, sotong semua adik aku belajar dari abah. hahaha. Kalau ada benda yang tak kena, abah aku selalu kata solution adik aku ialah panggil abah. Apa apapun ABAH. Yes she is like that.

Adik beradik aku ramai perempuan, so aku tengok serupa betul kteorang dengan family Dong Gook dalam TROS. Perangai ayahnye pun serupa, suka mengusik tapi dalam masa yang sama hero dalam keluarga.Beza dia cuma daebak tu bongsu je. Kalau family aku, along sulung. Kakak dia pun sama macam kakak2 aku. Kteorang sangat rapat dan saling bantu membantu. My sisters used to look after me masa kecik2 dulu. So much alike. Obviously Dong Gook tu manly dan athletic la sebab dia pemain bola sepak korea, yang tu abah kalah sikit sebab abah cikgu. Tapi abah cikgu yang disiplin yang disegani aherher. After all walaupun begitu banyak benda yang kteorang akan refer abah. Contohnya botol sos tak boleh bukak, tukarkan gas, sinki tersumbat, paip bocor, service kereta, dan masak rendang pun sekarang abah yang buat hehehe. Ingat lagi dulu dulu masa kecik abah dah ajar utk banyak berdikari. Alhamdulillah banyak kteorang belajar hasil didikan abah.

Dad, thank you for things you have done to us!
As I grow older, I can see tons of things and sacrifices you did for your kids.
People said, powerful women comes with an amazing dad behind them. And my Abah is one of the kind. Abah, Sarangae! <3 p="">

Superhero

Today marks my 1st laboratory day after my hari raya break.

I sometimes need a bit of recharging.

Dedicating this special gift to everyone who find things hard at times.

The Script - Superhero 

Because you are a superhero yourself! =D

Hwaiting!

日本のドラマ

Assalamualaikum peeps.

Tetiba tajuk dalam bahasa jepun pulak hahaha. Saje nak highlight tema.
日本のドラマ means Nihon'nodorame/Japanese drama.

Orang kata kalau nak tengok drama atau movie kena selalu cari yang ada message. Susah nak cari movie/drama yang decent sekarang ni, huhu. Tapi aku selalu ada rasa yakin bila cerita tu cerita Jepun haha. Aku bukan bias sebab last name aku Tsukushi tau ekekeke tapi sebab cerita Jepun banyak cerita yang berkisarkan keluarga, percaya pada diri, karier, ah banyak la lagi sebenarnya.

Okay basically rangka cerita ni pasal seorang peguam yang workaholic, apply kerja kat satu syarikat ni sebagai peguam, lepastu tempoh working trial dia 3 bulan. Dalam tempoh ni jugak dia kena baby sit anak boss dia, pergi hantar amik dari sekolah, kadang tu kena ganti boss dia pergi events parents bagai. At the same time kena maintain kerja kt office. Power gila dia kerja, aku yang tengok pun rasa penat. Dan masa kat childcare tu, dia end up jumpa sorang bapak budak ni yang sangat sayangkan kanak-kanak. Famous dalam kalangan kanak-kanak, which is very opposite la dengan perempuan ni yang tak pandai layan budak etc.

Wakanaba (female character) hidup susah dari kecik so decide nak belajar betul-betul dan kerja keras untuk ubah nasib hidup dia la gitu. Sebab hidup susah dan asyik kena kejar dengan ceti haram, hari hari dia belajar, baca buku law sebab dia nak selamatkan diri dia, buat semua benda kena perfect. Akhirnya dia membesar dengan jadi keras kepala betul dan straight forward dan workaholic gila. Perempuan ni mmg materialistik la, impian nak jadi kaya raya sebab dulu dah lalu banyak benda yang menyakitkan so I can relate. Dia hanya tahu semua hidup kena by law dan setiap keputusan yang dia buat tu perlu didasari dengan otak. Kalau hati kau cakap lain, tapi otak rasa benda tu relevan, then ikutlah otakmu. Pergh, heart wrenching jugak cerita ni, sebab dia keep on denying apa yang dia rasa, pastuu ego gilaaa. Aku rasa macam nak menjerit je kat Wakanaba tu suruh dia faham sikit hati dia, dah kenapa nak ego sangat? hahaha

So dalam cerita ni ada watak lelaki, Sato yang sangat baik & softhearted. Sampaikan dia jadi single dad bukan sebab dia nak pun, tapi sebab terlalu baik. Mak budak tu mintak tolong jagakan anak dia sampai la end up dorang kawin, mak dia lari dengan lelaki negro pergi New York, tinggal la dorang dua terkontang-kanting. Sato ni orangnya memang divine la. Pure sangat. hari hari senyum, kalau bukan salah dia pun dia mintak maaf. Hidup dia cukup la dengan anak dia Pitaro tu. Impian dia nak jadi chef pun dia give up sebab komitmen dia kat Pitaro padahal bukan anak dia pun at the first place. Sebabkan kebaikan dia ni, semua benda dia rasa berkorban sebab asyik fikir orang lain. Dia ni pun sama, aku rasa nak jerit je suruh dia sort sikit diri dia & fight for what he wants.

In the end both character dapat manage weakness masing-masing, jujur dengan diri dorang dan berjaya jadi berani sikit despite rasa malu dorang.

Cerita ni banyak jugak isu-isu yang lain. Ada satu eps ni aku memang tersentuh betul. Aku ni dah la sensitip sikit dengan cerita yang ada kaitan dengan keluarga & ibu bapa. Ayah Wakanaba ni datang Tokyo sebab dapat cerita Wakanaba ni nak kawin dengan orang kaya dekat office dia. Ayah dia seronok bukan kepalang la sampai datang office Wakanaba tumpang truck kawan dia weh. Sebabkan Wakanaba ni malu since ayah dia orang susah, Wakanaba cepat-cepat halau dari office suruh tunggu kat rumah dia je. Aim Wakanaba ni kan nak jadi kaya, so dia memang aim laki kaya kat office tu. Masa ayah dia nak berangkat pulang, ayah dia kasi buku bank ayah dia yang dari dulu ayah dia simpan, bank in setiap tahun 2705 yen sampailah anak dia nak kawin. Ayah dia akan bank in masa birthday dia, dan 2705 yen tu sebenarnya merujuk kepada  berat dia 2.705 kg. Ayah dia rasa ayah dia gagal jadi sorang bapak yang baik sebab tak dapat bagi kesenangan kat Wakanaba ni, tapi dia cuba yang terbaik supaya at least masa Wakanaba kawin, itulah benda yang dia dapat banggakan. Terus terbayang apa yang abah buat selama ni. Kasih ayah ni dia tak tunjuk je, tapi deep down inside dia sayang je kat kita. T.T aaaa sobss.

Banyak lagi highlight cerita ni, pasal hati seorang kanak-kanak yang nak perhatian ibu bapa, pasal impian and the list goes on. Menonton cerita begini kadang kala dapat membasahkan hati yang kering juga kan huhu. Mungkin sebab aku terlalu sibuk lately dan rasa takde 'me-time' utk refleksi diri

Kadang-kadang bila aku sorang sorang dan rasa macam kena recharge diri,selain dari cara conventional (rawatan jiwa to be specific;Quran, bangun malam etc) aku suka review balik cerita-cerita Jepun yang bagi aku naik semangat. Yang akhirnya mesej dia akan buat aku rasa, aku akan berjaya capai jugak kalau aku tak give up dan percaya pada diri. Cumanya mungkin la cerita Jepun ni kurang elemen ruhi/iman yang sebenarnya kalau kita nak capai sesuatu, kita kena rasa kejayaan kita dan usaha kita tu akan di'approve' oleh Dia, bukan solely depend on us =) Apa apapun, still kalau dia boleh buat kita dapat kumpulkan semangat untuk berusaha why not, right? Dan kerana itu juga, menonton setiap movie/drama itu juga perlulah dipandu dengan hati dan iman.

Bolehlah, kalau korang nak cari cerita ni:
Zenkai Girl/Full Throttle Girl :)

He

When I was 16 teen, I met someone whom I thought I'd end up with when I turned 24. 

He left, but I still know who he is. 

Inner Conscious

Real life and dramas are totally two different worlds. Even if you ask all the actresses and actors, they would say the same things. Ada sebab bila blog ni dibuka, awal-awal dah nampak yang jangan compare hidup ni dengan movie, because your is written by Allah, supaya dapat kurangkan sikit berangan tu. hahahaha. I mean it is essential to think about future, kan? But not when you started to think overboard.

Like what I just did these 2 days....

I should be writing my thesis chapter already, and read lots of journal. My supervisor want to see 50% improvement of the literature review in the next two weeks. However, I just wasted my 2 days weekend macam tu je. Aaaaa. Bad Syafiqa. Lazy Syafiqa >.<

This is entirely because of the things I watched. I've got addicted to this guy vlog that everytime when I log onto youtube to play some music videos I ended up watching his vidoes. Arghh, so frustrating!

  

Okay lemme tell you guys, I am so enthusiastic with trying new things. I think that was one of the reasons why once I was so eager to go to a boarding school and going overseas. It is not because of the stigma or the norm that those people are brilliant or whatsoever, simply because I wanna experience how does it feel to be in the situation myself. 

And I had the same thought of finding my future spouse too. Well, I told my mom that I wanna marry somebody who is non-malay. And do you know how she reacted? She raised her voice and said NO. I tried explaining it would not be necessary be a mat salleh (I thought what fears her the most was the distance), it could be Malaysian chinese or any bumiputera from Sabah and Sarawak,lol but still the answered was : NEVER. The most awkward moment ever, coz I thought it would not be a very big deal, instead it was a massive stuff and a problem to her. To clear things: simply because I wanna know how a mix marriage would feel, the twist of the two cultures must be very exciting. You'll learn more about a particular race, even better if he is from different country, you'll learn about the nation too! I am also gonna be so excited to see how would my babies look like. How much will the kids take after me or the dad & analyzing the nature of their behavior and interests. It must be related to the one's blood line. And to have the kids with the dad's last name is also exciting to me. hehe. Is it interesting? Okay, I look overexcited that I can list things more. hehe. 

So when I was in Adelaide, I encountered a cute Australian guy with  hazel eyes and brown hair in my Shakespeare class (though I am a biomedical sc student, i was allowed to enroll literature subject as my elective in my 1st year of uni). He was so attractive to me to be frank. He was quite and his mysterious style had added some points to my curiosity. I always have no interests in my local classmates btw, but his eyes really caught my attention. Lemme put it in a simpler way for you gys to get better view. Pernah tengok Haley Joel Osment dalam cerita 6th sense?

They've got similar eyes!

Well, he look just like Haley but in a cooler style. He doesn't smile much too.

That's the huge difference I shall say.

Haley looks sweet and friendly in this picture.

To cut the story short, we need to perform an acting in the class. Surprisingly, we were in the same group. I was happy and told my mom on the phone on my way back to my house. She was so astonished that she nearly dropped the phone and said. 

"Ya Allah ikaaa. kan mak dah cakap jangann"

Later, she continued with a dua:

"Ya Allah, biarlah anak aku ni kawin dengan orang Melayu"

I still remember it since I laughed so hard and I got teary myself. I found it so funny. My mom was very worried up to the extent whenever I mentioned about a white guy and told her he is quite good looking, she would went all anxious trying to make another dua for me. hehehe

Thanks mom. I appreciate it, since I went back to Malaysia all alone.

Just recently, as I worked so hard in the lab and seeking serenity from youtube, I stumbled upon a youtube channel which glorify back my desires haha! I mean this guy is so interesting! The 1st video I watched of him was about his adoption stories. A korean, who was adopted at a very young age in America. Well, he was originally born in Korea but raised in America. He looks like a pan-asian guy though. Most probably because he was raised in America well I don't know. It could be. Things that drives my fondness is about his personality when he looks like a mix-blood, his English is good, I don't know about his Korean though, but he sounds fluent to me haha, and his life story is quite interesting. When I heard about it, it feels like watching a korean drama that really exist haha. I subscribed his channel and ended up watching most of his video especially the mukbang. You know I am so into food, then oh why did you have so much videos about it T.T

                              

Ps: He is actually an eye candy. hehe

That is how it goes to another youtube channel I subscribed! Well as for this one, she is originally from America, she was so keen of Korea because of the food at first and decided to migrate to Korea later on. When she reached Korea, she taught english for the kindergarten and started to build up her life in Korea from scratch! Waww, I like it seeing people who breaks the norm, going for a big thing in life and do not afraid to take risks. She is so bright and cheerful too. It makes me happy just to watch her. This is very inspiring though, Allah has created us people to know each other, remember? :')

                              

Megan just know how to look happy! 

hahaha

So what do I plan in the future for a better challenges and culture experiences?

Enrolling Japanese language course for the meantime. 

Applied for an English teacher vacancies in Japan after my masters degree. 

....Or adopting any Korean babies too? Aherher

Recovered days

My energy is literally drained.

Been trying to grow my bacteria several times. Have been working for several weeks ever since I done my proposal defense. It turned out not that good though :( 

Sedihnya sebab bacteria susah nak hidup so I can't proceed performing DNA extraction. 

Another big program is coming soon. It's a massive program, really. 

I've been incharging with Registration Committee and I found it is not amusing at all, haha. Not my thing because the documentation turned out to be too technical. I keep on receiving texts from unknown number, and I did save 100+ participants telephone number and form nearly 8 whatsapp group just to follow up their registration fees. It took my whole morning just to do this. I do feel exhausted afterwards, lol. 

Yepp, 100% energy drained again.

Anyway, though things are quite difficult, Semai Mesra went all good alhamdulillah. Never missed the program for 4 years now, I could feel the happiness when I have to go back to the program. Of course, giving back to the society! Moga Allah redha dengan usaha ini.

Fave comrades and the best team ever since in Adelaide!

Also I received my 1st ever book that I am contributing to! hehe. Actually I am quite excited with the 1st book of my Down Under team. It is indeed a very high effort for our 1st book I reckon. The book is high in quality and I believe that everyone was trying their best to produce the book. All I can say that I am very proud of  the team! So if anyone is interested to buy this book you can directly contact me :)

The book cover. Book is not so thick but it is fully coloured and 

very beneficial iAllah. 

Some of the sneak peek of my writings :)

I submitted a few stories and I hope it would inspire everyone who reads it.

Although things get a lil bit difficult, still good things do happen hehe. This book really makes up my days back to be frank. I wish to write for the ummah more in the future. Let's create another history ahead syafiqa. Yosh!

Before the year ends

Hi.

Before 2016 ends, inbox me something that you've always wanted to tell or ask me. It's gonna stay secret between us two.

Dear God

Hi

I don't listen to Avenged Sevenfold haha. But this song is an exception. Lyrics are beautiful yet so heartwarming. I never heard anything from him anymore. I don't even know how things are going on. I'm just hoping that wherever we go, Allah protect us, keep us guided and blessed. I'm just hoping that we will be good Muslim. You know that I'm so into piano rhythm, kan? :)

"Dear god, 

The only thing I ask from you, 

is to hold her when I'm not around, 

when I'm much too far away.

We all need the person who can be true to you, 

but I lost her when I found her, 

and now I'd wish I stay."

ps: Look for the full lyrics though. You'll know why I'm so immersed with this.

Laid Back Day

Hi

Today is normal as it is. Except for pagi ni hujan. Seorang Wan Syafiqa memang suka hujan hujan ni. Jadinya pagi tadi dinikmati dengan menyelebungi diri dalam selimut sambil dengar lagu OAG sampai pukul 7 pagi. Hm, ni semua youtube punya pasal buat aku throwback lagu lama lama. Alhamdulillah hari ni dah semakin sihat walaupun masih kena telan panadol sebab kepala ni kadang kadang berat juga, batuk ni je yang tak baik baik lagi. Sampai terjaga tengah malam sebab tekak kering dan nak minum air. Pastu mula la terjaga lagi sebab nak pegi toilet pulak. Memang tak lena aku tidur minggu ni haha. Serius weh, banyak gila air aku minum ni. Niat nak pergi ambik antibiotik kat klinik, tapi takde transport wuwuwu T.T Semoga minum air berliter liter setiap hari ni dapat diteruskan demi menjaga diet yang dah kelaut ni lol.

Hari ni hari minggu so aku manfaatkan dengan hadir ke Seminar Fiqh Wanita: Siti Khadijah Era Milenia. Gempak en tajuk? :') Peeps seriously, the content was powerful I shall say. So the seminar answered my wonders of being a working mother. I will update the story about Khadijah and what I've got soon inshaAllah to keep myself motivated.

Today is full of surprises and good news. My facebook timeline is flooded with lots of photos of my friends having their convocation today! MashaAllah so proud of you guys. Bestnya tengok jubah kemain lawa lawa belaka :') Soon Wan Syafiqaaa, argh apsal baru beberapa bulan buat master dah rasa nak grad dah ni haha. Dahsat betul kawan kawan sekolah aku ni, dean list, pelajar terbaik keseluruhan etc mashaAllah what an attempt! Jenuh tau taip tahniah congrats setiap kali hehe. And another bestfriend declared she's gonna get married real soon on January! Waaww. I'm happy for you love. So upcoming weddings would be this December, January and February. Jadi berlakulah pencarian kain untuk kteorang. Since kawan aku tu nak tema pastel pastel gitu, dalam sehari cepat betul decide warna kain hiks. I like it so much & tak sabar pulak nak dapat kain tu coz it looks so beautiful in the picture. Aku jangkakan kali ni khidmat bridesmaid aku mungkin tak terseksa sangat sebab this nikah is gonna be a simple, short and sweet. Kena pulak hari yang sama ada reception kawan sekolah yang dari sekolah rendah ni. Korang ni buat meeting ke apa, pilih tarikh sama ni pulak hmm

This week is gonna be a hectic week for me. First, my lab works. Second, The Science Backyards program for the school kids. Semoga segalanya baik baik sahaja :)

Ps: Do I keep you waiting? And do you miss me? :P

Future Tsukasa

I would try my best not to make this post look like an advertisement.

Hawa was the first muslimah that Allah created for Adam. They are created so that they may be drawn for each other and find tranquility together. Allah created everything in pairs [78;8], meaning everyone is reserved for another soul to compliment each other. 

Looking for a spouse is a very crucial part for everyone I reckon. I believe that each and everyone of us wanting somebody who will be the savior of your day, soleh/solehah well a good man and woman generally speaking. However Prophet Muhammad stated the best guidelines in finding your Qurratu'l-Ayn; 

"A person chooses her/his life partner due to four reasons; 1.Rank 2.Money 3.Beauty 4.Taqwa (virtue). One should choose the best in Taqwa." [Sahih Hadeeth]

Regardless of his looks and wealth, I am looking for someone who's heart is attached to Him. I may not be perfect uhm everybody is not to begin with, but choosing someone who is at least, pray 5 times a day, worshiping Allah more than anything, knowing the purpose of life and building a family for the sake of Him. I believe that a man who take Islam as Ad-Deen or the way of life would lead my soon to be family into rahmah :) But mind you, Allah said a good woman is for a good man. Nevertheless, I am still struggling to be a better muslimah day by day. I still have a lot to improve and I hope that when the time has come, I am all set physically, mentally and spiritually. 

Considering the fact that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with him, I am still particular and have my own preferences when it comes to man, haha. 

• He must not be a smoker - Smoking is considered as haram. 
• I prefer someone who is tall - I am literally short, so those hard to reach items on the top shelfs are easily accessible lol
• He must be good at managing money - I need someone who can look after our family financial and economy. I am not good at it
• He must be good at handling my dad - I have Abah alone now. So I wanted someone who can be friend with my dad. Entertain him and follow him to masjid for Jemaah prayer :)
• He must be good at using tools - I am personally so bad at this. Please save our home from disaster soon
• Outspoken and confident - No reasons. It just that I'm easily attracted with this trait. 
• He must be neat - Hair especially. Barulah sedap mata memandang.
• He must be matured and reliable - I can be clingy at times

MashaAllah so picky kan. hahaha

After all, I believe that Allah will send me the one that suits me well. He will give the one that I am mostly needed, not practically someone whom I am asking for. I just have to wait patiently and prepare myself for our future.

So to my future spouse, 

I hope we can build a family with Ad-Deen soon. And also, despite the economic demands I will adore your knowledge more than your money. So please don't feel pressure about it lol 

See you when I see you :)

#prayforinternetinmahallah

Aku sekarang masih lagi dalam kondisi belajar untuk move on daripada Australia dan Adelaide to be specific. Ya masih dalam tempoh berkabung, masih rasa separuh jiwa tertinggal di Adelaide. Dan move on kali ni macam lagi teruk je dari putus cinta. hahaha. Masa adik adik junior hantar aku balik, babai babai gitu boleh lagi cool, bila dah turun nak naik airplane, tetiba menitis. Bila dah take off, mengalir pula. Allah, bila lagi nak sampai ke bumi Adelaide yang subur ni. Subur dengan program program dakwah dan tarbiyyah yang sangat memberi kesan pada hati yang kering. Pasti akan rindu adelaide dan seiisinya. T.T

Aku sebenarnya baru jet lag free.
Sampai je Malaysia terus amik bus klia-tbs. Lepastu tbs-kuantan. Sampai malaysia 4.30am. Dan perjalanan seterusnya amik masa lebih kurang 6-8jam juga la sebab sampai kuantan tengahari. Masa tula baru boleh baring dengan proper dan berehat sebaik mungkin atas katil. Jumaat terus ke lab jumpa supervisor dan berbincang tentang research sebab dr dah nak berangkat ke turkey pulak selama sebulan. Weekend, program. Kiranya hari ni baru boleh settle dan basuh segala baju balik haritu. Harini jugalah bila bangun pagi rasa cukup rehat dan tidur dengan harapan internet mahallah akan laju seperti biasa. Namun harapan punah, sebab lappy tak boleh nak connect dengan tenet langsung. Bukan setakat lambat, tapi tak boleh langsung tu yang menguji kesabaran. -___- It's been like 4 days since I came back internet tak okay. Actually several times dah jadi ni, skrng baru nak luah. haha. Patutlah tengok troll kat fb, student banyak complaint pasal internet uni lol. Now here I am, using internet access here in lab to update my blog.Well, internet is essential kot nowadays.

Tunggulah bila internet dah sihat, dah boleh connect. I will update my graduation days and ceremony updates here IAllah because it's something to be cherished. It's an achievement kan, so at least in 20years to come, when I scroll back my blog, I have something to show to my kids :)

#jetlagfree
#prayforinternetinmahallah

Dah kenapa ni

Aku tak tahu aku ni fragile sangat ke atau orang orang disekeliling aku yang agak harsh :(

Masa jumpa lab assistant tadi nak mintak signature je pun, tapi boleh rasa berdebar bila dia tanya macam macam dengan nada yang sangat tegas dan boleh terasa macam seperti tahanan polis pula. hahaha over kan. Tapi betul entah kenapa rasa macam eh kakak ni, apsal tanya macam macam ni T.T

Ada sekali tu, aku mesej je sorang brother ni sebab nak tanya pasal buffer solution dia. I knew him, tapi tak pernah pun mesej dia. He is actually a very bright guy yang sangat friendly dan banyak cakap. Tapi bila dia reply whatsapp aku sekali dia cakap, "sendiri pun banyak guna, bancuh sendiri la. aku ada je chemical dia kalau nak.." Ehh terasa iolss. Ntah kenapa bila ada lelaki yang bahasakan diri dia aku (except for my classmates and people i knew before) buat aku rasa macam, wow this is harsh mann haha. Jadi aku positifkan diri memang biasa je dia ni cakap syafiqa oiii, dah kenapa dengan kau ni nakk. -.-'

Korang sedia tahu, aku ada sorang supervisor yang sangat awesome :)

Serius, aku rasa bertuah sangat dapat sv yang macam kawan, concern kat kita. He makes me feel safe. Tapi ada satu thoughts dalam diri ni yang aku takut kecewakan dia. I wanted him to know he chooses the right candidate camtu laa. Ke sebab aku yang ada expectation tinggi kat diri aku? haha i dont knoww,

Anyway, aku ada satu konflik lagi yang aku serba salah nak mintak tolong orang. 

Okay I'm new. Aku macam sangat blur dengan system lab uia. Even sampai sekarang. Paling aku tak suka bila kena isi borang yang banyak banyak tuu. padahal consumable items je pun. Lepastu kena report kat semua lab assistant kita guna lab dia. Everything is scattered around so kau akan naik turun lab satu bangunan tu. Pastu aku stress cari barang hahaha. Aku tak tahu mana boleh guna mana tak :( Kang amik kang orang lain punya pulak. waaaah jenuh beb. Setiap kali aku nk buat sesuatu mesti aku akan survey 2 hari sebelum kat mana semua. Pastu aku siapkan mental dan jiwa supaya tenang dan supply apa yang patut. Aku jadi segan bila mintak tolong orang banyak sampai terpaksa mintak kakak ni je yang assist aku T.T Adakah ini dipanggil sebagai student master yang berdikari atau memang standard ada student master yang serupa aku ni asyik kena assist dengan orang je? Kalau kat lab aku dulu semua ada satu lab, pastu aku rasa warm je dengan semua orang sekeliling aku walaupun dorang mat salleh, tapi dorang sangat membantu dan meyakinkan. Apsal konfident aku hilang tetiba ni. Aaaaa kembalikan Wan Syafiqa yang hati kering, pakai redah dan confident. 

Pendek kata, minggu ni aku rasa serba tak kena dan distracted yang ntah apa2. I don't think it's pms either lol. I just hope things get better and I can fix my thoughts and mind. Fire up balik semangat dan self esteem please. Huu

Semoga pcr esok dapat band between 460kb and 469kb yang concentrate menggunakan designated primer yang sedia ada. Tolonglah ada band T.T