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Thursday, December 10, 2020

2020 Yang Terbang Dengan Laju

Assalamualaikum peeps. 

Allahu bersawang dah blog ni. Untuk tahun ni ada berapa ketul je rupanya post aku. 

Yes, covid-19 hits the world hard! Sedar-sedar, dah penghujung 2020 dah teman teman. 

Jadi apa yang sebenarnya berlaku dalam hidup aku ni? hahahahha

So sebelum ni aku selalu buat post just to look back at my achievement for over a year la kenkonon. Tapi tahun ni serius aku pun tak tau nak look back on apa because things go really fast. I heard many people were kicked out from their works because of the economical changes and so on. I just hope that things go better for everyone out there. I am rooting for you, so please don't give up. 

Since this year feels just like yesterday, I wanna tell you guys what has happened in my life throughout the year. 

 1.Awal Jan- April 2020

Selepas tolak tawaran phd di Chonbuk uni, Korea, aku dapat tawaran sebagai RA di Insititute for Molecular Medicine (INFORMM). Prof tawarkan aku selama 3 bulan sebelum aku register sebagai phd student dia. Aku suka duduk kat insitute tu. Best sebab cantik dan nampak cam mewah. Kena pulak ada kedai kopi sebelah lab yang aku boleh access dengan mudah. Tapi nak dijadikan cerita, boss aku toxic. Hari-hari aku pergi kerja pkul 7am-11pm. Penat dia jangan cerita la. Boss nak result cepat. So far aku masih boleh bagi result pada masa yang dia nak. Tapi bila start pkp, boss aku dah jadi unreasonable dan mula memarahi aku yang blur-blur ini. Sudahnya abah aku suruh stop sebab dia kata orang macam ni takkan bagi aku grad phd dengan baik. Dia mesti peram aku lelama dan eksploitasi tenaga aku. Dalam masa yang sama aku interview untuk satu projek phd di Turki. Sangat menarik projeknya tapi bagi aku tak mudah huhuhu. Eventually disebabkan keadaan di turki yang covid sedang menggila, supervisor aku kata mungkin susah nak teruskan projek tersebut buat masa terdekat jadi aku pun redha.

2. April-Jun 2020

Bermulalah episod aku membanting tulang empat kerat sebagai suri rumah tangga. Hari-hari aku masak untuk family aku. Buatkan bekal utk kakak aku yang bertugas sebagai frontliner. Hari-hari jugaklah mengemas rumah. Since adik aku pun ada kt rumah sebab dia online kelas, selalu banyak gak la spend masa dengan dia. Dan masa ni jugaklah aku prepare segala benda untuk sesuatu yang lebih besar dan merubah hidup aku 360 darjah bulan berikutnya. Pada masa ni jugak aku dapat tawaran mara untuk program biasiswa luar negara dan aku dapat tawaran kerja dari supervisor aku di satu syarikat biotech di Gebeng, Pahang. Sejujurnya, aku dalam dilemma. Tawaran kerja sangat tempting sebab gaji yang berpatutan dan sesuai dengan kelayakan aku yang ada sarjana/master ketika itu. Tapi bila aku tengok skop kerja, someone told me, "you can go far and better than this". Aku tolak tawaran kerja dan aku bagitahu supervisor aku "Saya nak sambung study, doakan saya jadi hebat macam dr." Dia reply "saya doakan kamu jadi lebih hebat dari saya". Lepastu aku mula msg potential supervisor di Manchester Uni, malangnya UK masih pkp dan mereka tak dapat nak arrange iv serta keluarkan surat tawaran pada aku buat masa yang terdekat. Jadi aku fikir, masih bukan rezeki aku pada ketika itu.

3. Julai 2020

Alhamdulillah, aku diijab kabulkan pada 17/7/2020 dengan seorang 'lelaki dalam doa'. Selepas aku bawa diri dan hati pada 2014, aku tak putus berdoa untuk Allah temukan aku dengan lelaki soleh yang baik, boleh jadi bestfriend abah, pandai manage duit dan sebagainya (boleh baca post:Future tsukasa sebab semua ciri-ciri tu ada pada dia). Maka Allah tunaikan segala hajat dan doa aku, Allah kurniakan aku seorang suami yang aku kenal 11 tahun lepas, tapi kami tak pernah berbual. Aku hanya tahu nama dan kewujudannya sahaja. Sehinggalah dia approach dan minta izin untuk jumpa family aku masa tu. So done with kawin haha, suami aku bawa pindah kepala batas, di tempat kami mula-mula bertemu. 

4. Selepas kawin-hujung September

Aku hidup sebagai suri rumah, tunggu suami balik dan hidangkan dia dengan pelbagi masakan air tanga aku. Seronok tengok suami makan punya pasal, aku sukalah try resepi macam-macam. Dia pun naik berat badan 5kg lepastu hahaha. Tapi dia masih kurus la dan mencapai bmi normal akhirnya lol.

 

5. Oktober-Disember

Aku dapat kerja sebagai RA di Institute Perubatan dan Pergigian Termaju (IPPT). Aku kena kerja dan jaga arnab pulak kali ni. Aku okay sebab kena bawak dia ke xray, ct scan dan  attend surgery. Akhirnya selepas aku build network dan connection, pencarian aku untuk dapat topik phd yang kena dengan jiwa serta sv yang baik akhirnya berakhir. Finally hujung nov, aku register sebagai phd student di ippt dengan harapan MARA support financial assistance aku sebab aku dah email mara tentang penukaran program overseas ke dalam negara dan meraka kata boleh. Doakan supaya urusan aku dipermudahkan! Tahun depan bakal bermula battle aku dengan phd, aku tak sabar tapi takut jugak dalam masa yang sama. Semoga projek ini baik dan memberi manfaat untuk ummah!


The only achievement I have this year.
okay la kannn hehehehheh
ya teman-teman saya dah nak masuk 5 bulan bergelar isteri.
Semoga kami dilimpahi sakinah, mawaddah wa rahmah :)  
Doakan kami

Tuesday, March 3, 2020

4th March 2020

These few days I talk about you a lot. 

I don’t want to reveal anything about you just to anyone since I wanted to reserve our stories to myself. But I guess since it’s your special day, I decided to write about you in more times to come, iAllah.

Without realizing, you existed 10 years ago when I thought I was actually ‘looking for someone else’. We neither talked nor there were memories about us. Amazingly, Allah sent you at the best time and place. It was the time when I can only see you the most out of the other guys out there. Indeed Allah is the best of planners.

I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. There are so much things about you that I look up to. You are just amazing since I knew you. Keep on being the amazing you and keep on shining. Islam memerlukan pemuda sepertimu :) 

I am grateful that Allah designed us to meet this way. Since it would be the beginning of a new episode and more stories to cherish after this. 

I pray that Allah would always keep us on track. Happy 27th birthday my house-mate to be! 



Saturday, January 4, 2020

2020 wishes :)

Every time new year comes, it always feels as fresh as usual.

Good vibe and beautiful spirit :)

As a tradition in my blog I would write what I've been through the whole previous year.

But last year I abandoned my blog quite a lot because I stopped using my laptop frequently coz I am totally done with my master degree. Yeayy alhamdulillah. I wanted to write my graduation story, viva story, my bfg story. I wanted to compile them all in my blog. Times aren't always there for me actually. I don't even know why. Haha. After all, I need to write my grad story shortly. But I would hold it for now. Maybe in a few days or time, I would. 

I called my 2019 as a 50/50 year. It's the year of creating new dreams. Not only my study milestone. 

Half of the year, I spend most of my time in Kuantan, and the other half is in my hometown. I live my life as a home full timer for now before I pursue my PhD. I think my rizq is there, instead of working. I've been thinking about it hard, and I hope things go well iAllah.

I found the other side of me last year when I lived in Kuala Kangsar for sure. The artistic part of me which I don't usually utilized hahaha. I also developed some dreams that I think might sounds relevant for me. It started because I wanted to find a decent muslim cafe for a reading and good coffee while waiting for  my dad's appointment. Unfortunately, I don't find one. The idea just popped up and I hope I can turn it into reality one day. 

I love good coffee, sables, breads, cakes and books. So I wanted to make one with good ambience, comfortable so that everyone who love their own time could come and find serenity and peace. I am obsess with cute and beautiful food. I am not a sweet eater actually hahaha but I just love the way how it looks. I know I am a big fan of food but the idea of creating cafe is a good thing coz I am someone who love to chill alone with my laptop, books and coffee.

I also develop my interest in skincare nowadays. I even thought of pursuing my PhD in skincare line so that I can develop my own skincare line, creating my own brand and packaging. Thinking about festival/seasons where people could celebrate their time with their loved one with my brand line for gifts at affordable prices. I wanted to create something as good as the korean skincare I am using. Lol, this is the confession of a acne prone skin girl who just got her skin healed after using wrong products. 

Since I am working a lot with bacteria and microbes, I am thinking to create a probiotic drink from my own strain. Cool tak? hahaha. This popped up sebab yakult selalu ada dalam fridge rumah which I enjoy drinking it so much loll.

After so much years of hectic lab and thesis writing, I finally have my own space to think about something cool. I can dream again finally hehehhe. This time, it is not the dreams that I have in highschool; to be a lecturer or having PhD etc, but it is something I love badly and wanted to share it with other people. I wanted to make people fall in love with things I have in mind :)

Pray for me.