What My Heart Wants To Say
"Never compare your life story with those in the movies, because they are written by the scriptwriters, and yours is written by Allah."
Monday, March 7, 2022
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Thursday, November 18, 2021
Another Life Update
Assalamualaikum & hi guys.
MashaAllah,it is november already! Dah nak habis tahun dah wei hahaha. And I have broke so many rules of my blog now. Lol. It is just that when I open my laptop, there are so much things to do that I can't even think of visiting my page.
So guys, alhamdulillah. I am now in my second semester of my PhD studies! Please make everything good for me ya Allah. To my readers, pleae pray for me :) I am in need of the prayers right now. Actually I am now in a hotel room following my husband for work. So sebab tu la boleh update blog since I have nothing to do and I just don't want to study hahahaha. You know mco really gets everyone exhausted without reason and I guess it is my time to take a break despite of the piling of readings I need to do. sheeesssh. *Suddenly I feel like there is so much unticked boxes of my to-do-list lol.
Anyway guys, since these 2 years where we can't go oversea, I am starting to long the adventure of traveling so much especially to other countries. I can't recall on how numerous times I tell my travel stories to my husband. I hope he did not feel annoyed of it since he did not experience it due to his economical factors at that time. We do hope that we can travel while we are not in much commitments (I am talking about children here). Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't decline any of my overseas offer a few years back :( But Allah is always the greatest of planners! I always feel that watching the nature and jaulah is the most impactful to feel the presence of Allah and how magnificent He could be. Hopefully, when I finish my studies, my husband and I can experience 'a live in a broad' series for a few years :)
Sunday, March 21, 2021
How I Met Your Father
Hi guys,
Baca balik my 1st 2021 post aku dah break a rule. Aku nak tulis 1 month 1 entry kan haaa. Tapi takde pun mengkomee. Padahal masa tu mco dan aku hanya duduk rumah sebab tak boleh masuk lab usm lagi. Banyak je masa sebenarnya -..-
Tapi tulah, blog ni hampir dilupakan dek kerana kesibukan aku sebagai seorang suri rumah echewaahhh hahaha. Sekarang aku suka betul menghasilkan dan mencuba pelbagai masakan. Dah masak, aku tangkap gambar buh dalam whatsapp status. So far aku tak pernah lagi la upload my so called food pictures in any platforms except for whatsapp status because I feel like my food is not that powerful enough to go so public and become celebrities just yet ahahaha. So my simple equation is that only my close friends would have the chance to see mine since I have your number and you have mine. So yeah, hope that my everyday food does not annoy anyone in my contact. If you get irritated by it, mute my story please.
Since I cook everyday and I feed my husband with so many good foods, my husband now gain a few kg. Sekarang dah tak kurus, dia dah hensem banyak tau =P
Okay let's go back to this post: How I Met Your Father.
I talked about this post for such a long time already. Selalu sangat main-main dengan Kak Mas pasal ni. Like 4-6 years ago we came across a news on a Malaysian married a Korean man. Lepastu berangan lah kami berdua kenkonon nak buat post yang sama hahahaha. But then, last year on 2020 I was married to a guy far from a so called oppa aha! But alhamdulillah, I call him as the guy in my prayer :)
When I had no one, I keep on praying that Allah SWT would grant me someone who would compliment me. I let Him know in my dua all the traits and characters that I seek for. My goal in marriage is of course Jannah and I really want someone who would lead me especially in this deen. At the same time I was striving to prep myself to be a better muslimah so that when I met the right one, I was all ready to shout let's embrace marriage and hunt for more rewards from Allah SWT.
Maha suci Allah yang mengetahui segalanya. He sent me the right guy at the right time and place. I was invited to be one of the panelist in a forum in my former school. The forum was pretty much on secularism and liberalism but we tried to convey all the points in a language that the kids would probably understand. So that was the starting point where he lead the alumni and be the forum moderator. Practically we were schoolmates but apparently we have no memories together. We've known each other for 10 years that time but we never talked to each other except for that time. So can you guys imagine how our batch-mates freaked out when we broke our marriage news? It was so funny that I didn't dare to reply anything in our batch whatsapp group. So we both stayed silent till things toned down a little.
So at that program, as we talked (of course on work), I realized he was quite a man of a kind. Terdetik pulak di hatiku masa tu "eh untung siapa dapat jadi isteri dia ni" literally out of nowhereee haha. Tapi tula nak kata, betapa Allah yang pegang hati kita. When the right guys come at the right time, begitulah hati kita dijentik. At that time, I was just finished with my master's viva. So that was the time when I submitted my thesis, back for good and reached my home. Several months after we met, he finally approached me.
When he told his intention, we started to go in depth on our vision and mission in marriage. No sweet and love words, he went direct and we tried to get each other opinion and thoughts on marriage. Our goal in life especially. We just wanted to know whether our thought intercepted so that this marriage would go toward its success especially in the eyes of Allah SWT.
Things went so fast though, that after a few months he finally met my dad & family. 6 months after the approach, we got engaged, and 7 months after that we got married. It's been 8 months of marriage now but it still feels like yesterday. I always look forward for our next dating spots and dates! Since we didn't date before marriage (we wanted to keep everything halal :D), it is always reviving to do everything together! Basically it's our 8 months of dating period hence it feels so hati berbunga haha. And I want to keep feeling this for the next thousand years IAllah.
So if one day our son/daughter asked us how we met each other, I would tell them we were school mates but your dad didn't make a move on me at the time. We both relied on Allah SWT so much and tried to keep everything in a way which is permissible in Islam. So that when the time was perfect (after 10 years), Allah SWT destined us to meet in the most beautiful way :)
Wednesday, January 27, 2021
A Fresh Start
Sebenarnya, it takes quite a while untuk menulis dalam blog ni balik.
I've tried many times, lepastu jadi draft jee. -..-
Mungkin sebab aku rasa agak cemuih selalu sangat depan laptop sebab aku kena submit report yang tertangguh. Akhirnya semalam aku dah berjaya submit ke semua documents dan report. Rasa puas hati sebab akhirnya aku dah takde hutang apa2 dah dengan boss aku sebelum ni. Hopefully aku boleh fokus dengan projek phd aku lepas ni. Doakan ye teman teman.
After a 13 days of flipped pages this year, mco strikes again! Haih gemuk aku cani dok rumah manjang hahaha. Tapi on the other side,banyak benda jugak boleh buat. Especially, finishing all the books that I once bought hahaha. Eksited je beli banyak2 buku, dan banyak lagi buku yang tak habis dibaca. Peminat buku mmg macam ni kan hmm. Ada lagi tak yang macam saya? hehe
Anyway untuk 2021 ni, aku nak develop new habits dalam diri aku. Actually dari azam-azam sebelum ni lagi aku nak develop banyak lagi positive habits. Ada yang berjaya dan ada yang tak. So aku rasa aku kekurangan satu nilai (aku memang struggle benda ni, tapi aku tak pernah jadikan dia sebagai sesuatu yang aku perlu improve): DISIPLIN.
Aku akan list-listkan apa yang aku nak capai dan aku rasa benda paling penting untuk bantu aku capai azam aku pada tahun 2021 ni ialah disiplin.
2021 resolution:
1. 365 days saving money challenge
2.To write and reflect more; Filling up my journal and write at least 1 entry in this blog every month
3. To exercise more; do my morning walk and jogging at least thrice a week
4. Drink 2L of water everyday
5. Get up 30 mins before subuh everyday
6. Track down my financial status every month
7. Find out any dishes that I enjoy the most and start a small business
8. Run a youtube channel and instagram to portray my passion in food and reading
9. Taking care of my health more. Eat less sugar and salt food
10. Grow my house with favorable craft and handmade products
Lately I've been obsess with fragrance and essential oil. Simply because I enjoy being in a super nice smell and relaxing environment. So I've bought so much of the fragrance oil and try to utilize all the oil in the most perfect ways. InshaAllah I would share them in the future.
Let's pray that 2021 is a better year for everyone.
Love,
Syafiqa
Thursday, December 10, 2020
2020 Yang Terbang Dengan Laju
Assalamualaikum peeps.
Allahu bersawang dah blog ni. Untuk tahun ni ada berapa ketul je rupanya post aku.
Yes, covid-19 hits the world hard! Sedar-sedar, dah penghujung 2020 dah teman teman.
Jadi apa yang sebenarnya berlaku dalam hidup aku ni? hahahahha
So sebelum ni aku selalu buat post just to look back at my achievement for over a year la kenkonon. Tapi tahun ni serius aku pun tak tau nak look back on apa because things go really fast. I heard many people were kicked out from their works because of the economical changes and so on. I just hope that things go better for everyone out there. I am rooting for you, so please don't give up.
Since this year feels just like yesterday, I wanna tell you guys what has happened in my life throughout the year.
1.Awal Jan- April 2020
Selepas tolak tawaran phd di Chonbuk uni, Korea, aku dapat tawaran sebagai RA di Insititute for Molecular Medicine (INFORMM). Prof tawarkan aku selama 3 bulan sebelum aku register sebagai phd student dia. Aku suka duduk kat insitute tu. Best sebab cantik dan nampak cam mewah. Kena pulak ada kedai kopi sebelah lab yang aku boleh access dengan mudah. Tapi nak dijadikan cerita, boss aku toxic. Hari-hari aku pergi kerja pkul 7am-11pm. Penat dia jangan cerita la. Boss nak result cepat. So far aku masih boleh bagi result pada masa yang dia nak. Tapi bila start pkp, boss aku dah jadi unreasonable dan mula memarahi aku yang blur-blur ini. Sudahnya abah aku suruh stop sebab dia kata orang macam ni takkan bagi aku grad phd dengan baik. Dia mesti peram aku lelama dan eksploitasi tenaga aku. Dalam masa yang sama aku interview untuk satu projek phd di Turki. Sangat menarik projeknya tapi bagi aku tak mudah huhuhu. Eventually disebabkan keadaan di turki yang covid sedang menggila, supervisor aku kata mungkin susah nak teruskan projek tersebut buat masa terdekat jadi aku pun redha.
2. April-Jun 2020
Bermulalah episod aku membanting tulang empat kerat sebagai suri rumah tangga. Hari-hari aku masak untuk family aku. Buatkan bekal utk kakak aku yang bertugas sebagai frontliner. Hari-hari jugaklah mengemas rumah. Since adik aku pun ada kt rumah sebab dia online kelas, selalu banyak gak la spend masa dengan dia. Dan masa ni jugaklah aku prepare segala benda untuk sesuatu yang lebih besar dan merubah hidup aku 360 darjah bulan berikutnya. Pada masa ni jugak aku dapat tawaran mara untuk program biasiswa luar negara dan aku dapat tawaran kerja dari supervisor aku di satu syarikat biotech di Gebeng, Pahang. Sejujurnya, aku dalam dilemma. Tawaran kerja sangat tempting sebab gaji yang berpatutan dan sesuai dengan kelayakan aku yang ada sarjana/master ketika itu. Tapi bila aku tengok skop kerja, someone told me, "you can go far and better than this". Aku tolak tawaran kerja dan aku bagitahu supervisor aku "Saya nak sambung study, doakan saya jadi hebat macam dr." Dia reply "saya doakan kamu jadi lebih hebat dari saya". Lepastu aku mula msg potential supervisor di Manchester Uni, malangnya UK masih pkp dan mereka tak dapat nak arrange iv serta keluarkan surat tawaran pada aku buat masa yang terdekat. Jadi aku fikir, masih bukan rezeki aku pada ketika itu.
3. Julai 2020
Alhamdulillah, aku diijab kabulkan pada 17/7/2020 dengan seorang 'lelaki dalam doa'. Selepas aku bawa diri dan hati pada 2014, aku tak putus berdoa untuk Allah temukan aku dengan lelaki soleh yang baik, boleh jadi bestfriend abah, pandai manage duit dan sebagainya (boleh baca post:Future tsukasa sebab semua ciri-ciri tu ada pada dia). Maka Allah tunaikan segala hajat dan doa aku, Allah kurniakan aku seorang suami yang aku kenal 11 tahun lepas, tapi kami tak pernah berbual. Aku hanya tahu nama dan kewujudannya sahaja. Sehinggalah dia approach dan minta izin untuk jumpa family aku masa tu. So done with kawin haha, suami aku bawa pindah kepala batas, di tempat kami mula-mula bertemu.
4. Selepas kawin-hujung September
Aku hidup sebagai suri rumah, tunggu suami balik dan hidangkan dia dengan pelbagi masakan air tanga aku. Seronok tengok suami makan punya pasal, aku sukalah try resepi macam-macam. Dia pun naik berat badan 5kg lepastu hahaha. Tapi dia masih kurus la dan mencapai bmi normal akhirnya lol.
5. Oktober-Disember
Aku dapat kerja sebagai RA di Institute Perubatan dan Pergigian Termaju (IPPT). Aku kena kerja dan jaga arnab pulak kali ni. Aku okay sebab kena bawak dia ke xray, ct scan dan attend surgery. Akhirnya selepas aku build network dan connection, pencarian aku untuk dapat topik phd yang kena dengan jiwa serta sv yang baik akhirnya berakhir. Finally hujung nov, aku register sebagai phd student di ippt dengan harapan MARA support financial assistance aku sebab aku dah email mara tentang penukaran program overseas ke dalam negara dan meraka kata boleh. Doakan supaya urusan aku dipermudahkan! Tahun depan bakal bermula battle aku dengan phd, aku tak sabar tapi takut jugak dalam masa yang sama. Semoga projek ini baik dan memberi manfaat untuk ummah!
Tuesday, March 3, 2020
4th March 2020
Saturday, January 4, 2020
2020 wishes :)
Good vibe and beautiful spirit :)
As a tradition in my blog I would write what I've been through the whole previous year.