To tell you the truth I kind of lose my motivation to endure my normal days. I am not a person who lose to myself, instead I fight for everything I have to fight and stay strong by myself even if the world is against me. The best I need is just myself to keep going.
Lately things don't go on their way. I think I am frustrated over my research project. The thing is I have like 30% to complete so my lab work would be officially done. However it goes the other way round. I believe that in research everything is unpromising and really fragile. The samples you have etc. When you are working in the field of microbiology, this is even harder because you can't really see anything until you run a confirmatory test. And those tests are the most heart-wrenching thing evaaa people!
I was on my way back from the lab so I stopped by the cafe to grab some food, eventually I met a 5th sem master student and we had a chat. She decided to extend her semester so she has ample time to write her thesis. I am always worry in this kind of thing. This anxiety nowadays get quite annoying and hair loss is not a joke too. Haih
As time goes by, I feel quite empty and lonely.
I do sometimes underrated myself, and sometimes I do have some expectation as well.
I am so complicated, yeah I know lol.
I think I need someone to at least console me, tell me that you believe in me when I have doubt in myself, and making me feel a lot more confident back.
Off my eye bags, pale and breaking out face.
Smiling makes you look brighter, at least it hides
your struggles.
I need a booster, please.
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