Assalamualaikum peeps.
Now holiday is over. Get back to my normal days and headache lol.
I don't know why but I have such a lazy ass this week! Having my time alone is quite addictive and at the same time it keeps my energy drained. I love to see people, but going out is not really my 1st option though because it is always hot out there. Omaigad, I sound so sassy here -__-
Perhaps, if I am living with roomates at least, I would not feel this lost I guess. I need to recharge this energy, by meeting people and going to the lab.
I should have been doing this last 3 days. I mean working in the lab. Kata nak grad on time -..- Well, I did actually. Transferring my DNA samples looking for dry ice and sending it back to the 1st Base. Soon after that, I received a shocking news that makcik cleaner kena rasuk kat lab.
Whaaattt $#%^#^#
It was early in the morning when she saw a figure with red eyes wandering around the lab that I am working in. Okay, I admit it that my lab surrounding is quite gloomy with lots of unseen corners. It is somehow quite logical if those figure could appear out of nowhere. Normally I am not affected with this kind of story. I have this heart which does not care of anything. Weirdly, I feel the other way around this time. Padahal dengar cerita pun tak complete. Entah kenapa jiwa ni memberontak takut nak pergi lab kenapa pulak ni heeeii -___- Goosebumps, please go away. Man, you've been living in a 10 stories empty mahallah before for a few months and the only level who had people living in it was just my level and only 3 rooms were occupied that time. Dulu tak rasa pape, ni dah dah kenapa gelabah pelik pelik pulak ni lahaii. I hate myself now :/
I have no reasons to get headache.
But I just had, thinking too much and isolating myself in my room. It is not normal for a person like me. Obviously...
Paksa diri untuk pergi lab jom!
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T.T
"Never compare your life story with those in the movies, because they are written by the scriptwriters, and yours is written by Allah."
Thursday, March 30, 2017
Thursday, March 23, 2017
Treating myself
Hi peeps.
Actually I am home again! hehehe.
Kuala Kangsar always feels at home. No matter how far I'd go, how I told people Japan is my absolute destination, and how I am fond of travelling, nothing can beat the place where I belong too. I will always know I would come back to this place :')
Anyway, I've been working so hard for the past few weeks too. and to be honest I feel exhausted quite a few times. My sister from Sabah finally got a week break from hospital, so after a consultation with my supervisor and my naqibah too, eventually I got a week getaway from my hectic schedule which I am so happy and grateful of. There you go a family gathering featuring my sisters and Abah. Too bad my niece, Kak Opa and family did not tag along. It must be a complete and fun family gathering I reckon!
We decided to gather at my sister's house at first. Exploring dungun before we sent off adik at the bus station back at utm (she did not have any holidays so it was just a sweet escape weekend for her). From the day adik got in Kuantan until I reached Kuala Kangsar (got back today), I had my stomach filled most of the times. Chilling times for my family are enjoying the scenery while eating haha. Since mom left, we hadn't have a proper meal like we used to have. We used to request lot of foods from my mom everytime balik kampung. But now, everytime we get back together, everyone was trying to satisfy Abah's need. Asking abah what he wanted to eat is like a normal routine now. So every time it's a gathering time for the family, we always have our food planned rather than the places we wanted to cover lol.
Later on, after sending my sister off, the next day we went to Kuala Terengganu. As my sister's flight back to Sabah is at Kuala Terengganu we decided to explore a lil bit of KT best places to go. Australia taught me of appreciating beaches the most, so when I got back here I tend to acknowledge the beaches we got here. Despite the hotness I must say I've got sunburn too haha but it's okay they said tanned is hotter hahaha, Terengganu has beautiful beaches after Sabah :)
So I sent my sister off and got back to Dungun. Well it was just more to spending time with my nephew Abang long Fateh, and Kak Ngah too. The next day is also a day treat for me. My pampering day. I went to saloon and had my hair treatment, then I went to the spa nearby, had my skin treatment too. Hilang semua stress, penat lelah bagai tuu. haha. Puas hati kita. If a single girl like me who got no commitment and get so stressful with her life, I wonder how it goes to other people who are doing masters/phd, owning a family, being a wife, have children, not forgetting tarbiyyah manage their life. They must be working under pressure way heavier than me. So please men, it is essential to treat your woman with this. I know they will like it very much because I believe they just need a short break and her short own time to top up back their drained energy.
Tapi sebenarnya kalau Wan Syafiqa ni,
A bouquet of flowers and a box of sushi, is enough to make her day.
She will consider you, a husband materials already.
Aha!
Jap.
Tambah satu lagi trait, lelaki soleh.
Actually I am home again! hehehe.
Kuala Kangsar always feels at home. No matter how far I'd go, how I told people Japan is my absolute destination, and how I am fond of travelling, nothing can beat the place where I belong too. I will always know I would come back to this place :')
Anyway, I've been working so hard for the past few weeks too. and to be honest I feel exhausted quite a few times. My sister from Sabah finally got a week break from hospital, so after a consultation with my supervisor and my naqibah too, eventually I got a week getaway from my hectic schedule which I am so happy and grateful of. There you go a family gathering featuring my sisters and Abah. Too bad my niece, Kak Opa and family did not tag along. It must be a complete and fun family gathering I reckon!
We decided to gather at my sister's house at first. Exploring dungun before we sent off adik at the bus station back at utm (she did not have any holidays so it was just a sweet escape weekend for her). From the day adik got in Kuantan until I reached Kuala Kangsar (got back today), I had my stomach filled most of the times. Chilling times for my family are enjoying the scenery while eating haha. Since mom left, we hadn't have a proper meal like we used to have. We used to request lot of foods from my mom everytime balik kampung. But now, everytime we get back together, everyone was trying to satisfy Abah's need. Asking abah what he wanted to eat is like a normal routine now. So every time it's a gathering time for the family, we always have our food planned rather than the places we wanted to cover lol.
Later on, after sending my sister off, the next day we went to Kuala Terengganu. As my sister's flight back to Sabah is at Kuala Terengganu we decided to explore a lil bit of KT best places to go. Australia taught me of appreciating beaches the most, so when I got back here I tend to acknowledge the beaches we got here. Despite the hotness I must say I've got sunburn too haha but it's okay they said tanned is hotter hahaha, Terengganu has beautiful beaches after Sabah :)
I took my happy pills :)
So I sent my sister off and got back to Dungun. Well it was just more to spending time with my nephew Abang long Fateh, and Kak Ngah too. The next day is also a day treat for me. My pampering day. I went to saloon and had my hair treatment, then I went to the spa nearby, had my skin treatment too. Hilang semua stress, penat lelah bagai tuu. haha. Puas hati kita. If a single girl like me who got no commitment and get so stressful with her life, I wonder how it goes to other people who are doing masters/phd, owning a family, being a wife, have children, not forgetting tarbiyyah manage their life. They must be working under pressure way heavier than me. So please men, it is essential to treat your woman with this. I know they will like it very much because I believe they just need a short break and her short own time to top up back their drained energy.
Tapi sebenarnya kalau Wan Syafiqa ni,
A bouquet of flowers and a box of sushi, is enough to make her day.
She will consider you, a husband materials already.
Aha!
Jap.
Tambah satu lagi trait, lelaki soleh.
Sunday, March 12, 2017
Outstation Bersama Boss
Assalamualaikum wbt
Aku selalu fikir yang aku susah nak bekerja dengan makhluk yang bernama lelaki. huhu. Mungkin kerana aku rasa mereka susah nak difahami. Atau faktor yang dulunya aku bersekolah di sekolah all-girls-school for nearly 10 years. Tak cukup dengan tu, aku dibesarkan dengan adik beradik perempuan sahaja. Dalam adik beradik aku, along sulung dan disusuli dengan 4 orang lagi adik perempuan bawah dia. Masa kecik-kecik dulu, along dah masuk asrama sejak dari form 1, makin kurang la masa nak spend dengan dia. Gap umur pun jauh, more or less we haven't done so much things together pun. So hidup aku memang dikelilingi dengan semangat keperempuanan. Nasib baik tak jadi feminist yang radikal tu, lol. Anyway, up until now I still think one gender school is the best. Nak jugak, tak kira.
Okay lah, baru ni aku kena pergi satu majlis ni yang menghimpunkan pimpinan universiti. Jadi ber-outstation la kami sebagai wakil uia. Boss aku ni seorang pelajar medic uia which aku memang respect la sebab walau busy mcm mana pun dia, meeting tetap datang. Respon dalam whatsapp pun dia, semua lah senang cerita. Kalau bercakap tentang seorang figure ikhwah, dia la yang paling dominan bagi aku, mungkin sebab dia presiden obviously dan dia je yang aku banyak communicate pun haha! Kalau macam kat adelaide dulu, nampak sorang sorang pattern ikhwah ni macam mana, tapi kat uia ni aku macam tak boleh baca sebernya personaliti sorang-sorang ni. Ni juga antara faktor yang menyebabkan aku kurang husnozon dengan mereka. Ya tahu, tak baik huhu.
Disebabkan boss aku ni budak medic, aku rasa serba salah nk push2 boss aku ni walau kadang aku rasa aku jadi bossy sangat nagging tak sudah dalam group tu mengarah sana sini. Argh, I hate myself sometimes :/ Aku risau jee kalau aku kacau dia buat banyak benda. Kadang tu ada la masa yang penat tunggu dia reply, pastu aku ada thoughts yang 'ikhwah mmg semua cani kaan'. hahaha. Emo pulak tetiba, yerla aku buat kerja kalau boleh nak settle cepat. Nak dijadikan cerita, aku ternampak boss aku ni dok selak-selak nota dia sementara tunggu next slot. Selama ni memang aku ada thoughts yang mungkin dia busy etc, tapi part of it aku still in denial state yang macam "simple je kot, nk suruh reply je" kind of thing. Sekarang baru aku rasa kesiannya dia, bermujahadah antara study dan dakwah. Cuba sebaik mungkin nak balance kan dua benda tu. Entah kenapa time tu barulah hilang part in denial state tu. Terus aku berdoa supaya dia dapat jadi doktor yang berjaya soon.
So antara slot dalam majlis tu ialah pasal ujian personaliti. The idea is you have to know each and everyone of your team untuk kita senang handle anak buah atau pimpinan2 yang lain. Dan boss aku memang a total opposite dengan aku. aaaaaaa
Aku ialah seorang sanguine. The popular one (Buku kata)
Aku memang extrovert, suka jumpa orang, friendly, playful, cheerful, creative, adventurous, and very bright. My weakness is I am disorganised, forgetful, I have too much ideas but couldnt get it organised, it is always scattered around. Generally popular sanguine ni dorang kata kuat sembang je tapi kerja tak jalan. Ish. I do not know about other sanguine, but this sanguine walk the talk okay. hehe
Boss aku pulak ialah type perfect melancholic. Okay, dia rupanya perfectionist.
Introvert dan suka menyediri based on general idea tu la. Tapi soon after tu nampaknya terjawab juga persoalan aku apabila dia bangun untuk defend para melancholic ni. Buat aku terfikir lepastu, is this a confession, mate? Katanya, kerja jadi lambat & suka buat sendiri2 ialah sbb kurang percaya orang dan takut kerja tu tak capai expectation. Okay, aku ialah manusia yang sangat percayakan orang dan meraikan every single ideas anak anak buah aku, sebab for me itulah cara yang terbaik untuk perkembangan skill seseorang. Takde jawapan yang salah, yang ada cuma penambah baikkan. Tapi boss aku pula agak complex. lol.
Apa-apa pun, selepas majlis ni, aku dah makin berhusnuzon dengan dia dan semakin faham pattern dia. Aku harap, dia masih percayakan aku & tak terpengaruh dengan mitos sanguine tersebut.
Adios!
Aku selalu fikir yang aku susah nak bekerja dengan makhluk yang bernama lelaki. huhu. Mungkin kerana aku rasa mereka susah nak difahami. Atau faktor yang dulunya aku bersekolah di sekolah all-girls-school for nearly 10 years. Tak cukup dengan tu, aku dibesarkan dengan adik beradik perempuan sahaja. Dalam adik beradik aku, along sulung dan disusuli dengan 4 orang lagi adik perempuan bawah dia. Masa kecik-kecik dulu, along dah masuk asrama sejak dari form 1, makin kurang la masa nak spend dengan dia. Gap umur pun jauh, more or less we haven't done so much things together pun. So hidup aku memang dikelilingi dengan semangat keperempuanan. Nasib baik tak jadi feminist yang radikal tu, lol. Anyway, up until now I still think one gender school is the best. Nak jugak, tak kira.
Okay lah, baru ni aku kena pergi satu majlis ni yang menghimpunkan pimpinan universiti. Jadi ber-outstation la kami sebagai wakil uia. Boss aku ni seorang pelajar medic uia which aku memang respect la sebab walau busy mcm mana pun dia, meeting tetap datang. Respon dalam whatsapp pun dia, semua lah senang cerita. Kalau bercakap tentang seorang figure ikhwah, dia la yang paling dominan bagi aku, mungkin sebab dia presiden obviously dan dia je yang aku banyak communicate pun haha! Kalau macam kat adelaide dulu, nampak sorang sorang pattern ikhwah ni macam mana, tapi kat uia ni aku macam tak boleh baca sebernya personaliti sorang-sorang ni. Ni juga antara faktor yang menyebabkan aku kurang husnozon dengan mereka. Ya tahu, tak baik huhu.
Disebabkan boss aku ni budak medic, aku rasa serba salah nk push2 boss aku ni walau kadang aku rasa aku jadi bossy sangat nagging tak sudah dalam group tu mengarah sana sini. Argh, I hate myself sometimes :/ Aku risau jee kalau aku kacau dia buat banyak benda. Kadang tu ada la masa yang penat tunggu dia reply, pastu aku ada thoughts yang 'ikhwah mmg semua cani kaan'. hahaha. Emo pulak tetiba, yerla aku buat kerja kalau boleh nak settle cepat. Nak dijadikan cerita, aku ternampak boss aku ni dok selak-selak nota dia sementara tunggu next slot. Selama ni memang aku ada thoughts yang mungkin dia busy etc, tapi part of it aku still in denial state yang macam "simple je kot, nk suruh reply je" kind of thing. Sekarang baru aku rasa kesiannya dia, bermujahadah antara study dan dakwah. Cuba sebaik mungkin nak balance kan dua benda tu. Entah kenapa time tu barulah hilang part in denial state tu. Terus aku berdoa supaya dia dapat jadi doktor yang berjaya soon.
So antara slot dalam majlis tu ialah pasal ujian personaliti. The idea is you have to know each and everyone of your team untuk kita senang handle anak buah atau pimpinan2 yang lain. Dan boss aku memang a total opposite dengan aku. aaaaaaa
Aku ialah seorang sanguine. The popular one (Buku kata)
Aku memang extrovert, suka jumpa orang, friendly, playful, cheerful, creative, adventurous, and very bright. My weakness is I am disorganised, forgetful, I have too much ideas but couldnt get it organised, it is always scattered around. Generally popular sanguine ni dorang kata kuat sembang je tapi kerja tak jalan. Ish. I do not know about other sanguine, but this sanguine walk the talk okay. hehe
Boss aku pulak ialah type perfect melancholic. Okay, dia rupanya perfectionist.
Introvert dan suka menyediri based on general idea tu la. Tapi soon after tu nampaknya terjawab juga persoalan aku apabila dia bangun untuk defend para melancholic ni. Buat aku terfikir lepastu, is this a confession, mate? Katanya, kerja jadi lambat & suka buat sendiri2 ialah sbb kurang percaya orang dan takut kerja tu tak capai expectation. Okay, aku ialah manusia yang sangat percayakan orang dan meraikan every single ideas anak anak buah aku, sebab for me itulah cara yang terbaik untuk perkembangan skill seseorang. Takde jawapan yang salah, yang ada cuma penambah baikkan. Tapi boss aku pula agak complex. lol.
Apa-apa pun, selepas majlis ni, aku dah makin berhusnuzon dengan dia dan semakin faham pattern dia. Aku harap, dia masih percayakan aku & tak terpengaruh dengan mitos sanguine tersebut.
Adios!
Wednesday, March 8, 2017
Lalu, kamu hidup sebagai apa?
Assalamualaikum
Kembalilah kepada Allah dalam keadaan lunyai.
Semester ni nampaknya lebih dahsyat dari biasa. Dah mula kurang masa untuk diri sendiri huhu. Tahun lepas sebenarnya sesi pemanasan badan je rupanya. Bila dah mula benar benar jadi seorang pelajar master dan perlu assist 2 orang pelajar fyp, Wan Syafiqa nampknya dah lebih matang dah. Walaupun 2 orang pelajar tu sebenarnya tua lagi dari aku hehe.
Masa nak update blog pun ni curi curi sisa-sisa masa yang terluang.
Kata Hassan Al-Banna, tanggungjawab ni memang banyak dari masa yang kita ada. Literally, I have so much things to do. Tahun ni diberi taklifan dan kepercayaan untuk menjadi ketua beliawanis uia kuantan. Kadang-kadang rasa macam tak layak pun nak pegang title tu, sebab orginally I am not a student from uia, jadi diri sendiri pun masih terkapai-kapai nak faham sistem dan budaya uia ni macam mana. Meeting setiap biro, haruslah kena hadir. Pembina sendiri ada 5 biro, dan disebabkan itu aku hanya mampu berhuhuhu aje. lol. Ya, Wan Syafiqa kena banyak belajar.
Masa kat Adelaide dulu, ada sebahagian tandas yang diconteng oleh budak budak uni. Sejujurnya aku sendiri pun tak faham kenapa dorang bertindak sedemikian, padahal dalam toilet kalau dah selesai business keluar la kan. Ni ada la pulak masa nak luang masa lelama dalam tu haha. Tapi tapi, kadang tu aku terhibur jugak baca sementara dalam toilet tu hehe. Cumanya aku pernah terkesan dengan satu ayat ni
"time is like drugs, if you have more than you need, it will kill you".
It's so true though, sampaikan aku pernah up benda ni dalam taujihat aku masa meeting kot haha. Betul, jadi banyak la benda yang aku buat untuk isi masa lapang, cari ilmu & belajar benda baru etc. Berbekalkan semangat tu, aku bercadang untuk enrol kelas Bahasa Jepun. Nak amik semangat Al-Fateh yang mampu berbahasa 8 bahasa! Niatnya, selepas master ni aku nak tinggal beberapa lama pula la ke Jepun. Kerja kat sana dan kumpul pengalaman. Aku dah buat research dah pasal agent nak mengajar English etc. Semangat kan, so sepanjang aku nak habiskan master ni aku plan nk belajar extra, nanti senang la habis master at least basic bahasa jepun tu ada. Tapi lain pula jadinya bila aku ke pejabat uia, niat nk enrol kelas, akhirnya aku kena mengajar English pula disebabkan aku dapat request daripada officer dia. Aku setuju sebab plan aku untuk ke Jepun dan ajar English, tapi konon-kononnya disebabkan aku cemerlang Bahasa Sepanyol dulu masa kat uni, uia nk bukak kelas Spanish hahahaha. And yes, I am an English and la profesor en clase de Espanol now. kahkah. Uia memang cari tutor dan kekurangan tutor, so yes Wan Syafiqa kena belajar lagi. Kena revise banyak Bahasa Spanish. Gaji tak banyak, tapi cukup kot nak tampung yuran hostel kat uia ni sementara menunggu scholarship. Semoga hati ini sentiasa ikhlas, dan mengajar untuk sampaikan ilmu. Sebab tu lah antara deeds yang akan stand by us kt akhirat nanti. Tulis semula benda ni nak pesan kat diri sendiri untuk tak banyak blabbing, walaupun tak percaya mula2 dan rasa kurang confident nk menagajar bahasa ni, Allah dah jawab dah doa awak, sebab awak mintak supaya Allah berikan yang termampu dan terbaik andai kata dua subjek ni awak mampu mengajar.
Begitu juga dengan usrah. Penggerak dakwah kurang, jadi ada sesentengah akhwat yang terpaksa bawak dua usrah. Ya, akulah akhwat terpilih tersebut. Perlu menyantuni hati hati manusia yang inginkan makanan rohani. Perlu bina ukhuwwah from scratch andai kata adik adik yang ingin dibina iman itu perlu ditegur kearah kebaikan. Sebenarnya, bahan usrah yang aku baru cover baru ni untuk adik adik ialah peringatan pada diri aku. Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 208-209. Dalam tafsir tersebut, Syed Qutb kata orang yang memahami hakikat kehidupan dan matlamat kehidupan ini, tidak akan pernah gundah gulana, atau putus asa, malah hatinya penuh dengan kedamaian. Al akh tersebut akan sentiasa ingin beribadat dan berbakti dengan Allah dengan ilmu dan pendapatannya. Maka setiap perkara yang dibuat dia pasti akan menjaga kesucian dan sentiasa memperbaiki amalannya. Kerana para daie tidak akan mengharapkan imbalan di dunia, dia menyerahkan segala upah dan ganjarannya untuk disempurnakan oleh Allah. Walau masa, tenaga dan duit dikorbankan, hati ini sentiasa meyakini bahawa ada sesuatu yang baik Allah akan ganjarkan. Nikmat perasaan yakin dan percaya ni hanya akan dirasai oleh orang orang yang sedar akan matlamat kehidupan dan iman yang subur dalam hati.
Jadi Wan Syafiqa, kalau semakin banyak program & meeting yang perlu hadir, walaupun ia menuntut masa, jangan takut untuk pergi kerana yakinlah itu juga antara usaha-usaha dakwah. Bersyukurlah selagi Allah meletakkan awak dalam jalan ini. Bersyukurlah kerana kesibukan ni adalah satu nikmat. Why? Dia menjauhkan awak dari perkara-perkara yang tak berfaedah. It leads you into someone who is an asset for the ummah :]
Belum lagi cerita pasal projek master dan paper-paper yang harus dibaca. hehehehe.
Semoga Allah sentiasa beri keberkatan masa, menerima amal-amalku, serta dikurniakan hati yang sentiasa ikhlas dan jujur bekerja keranaNya.
Kembalilah kepada Allah dalam keadaan lunyai.
Lalu, kamu sebenarnya hidup sebagai apa?
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