A simple SORRY.

Assalamualaikum.

These few days, I was frustrated over myself for being too sensitive on small things. It may looks normal to other people but not for me when the stuffs that you really longed for it. For me who is the person who loves to share things with the 'so-called-highlight-of-my-life', it doesn't seems normal when the important things that I want to share were not express-able. But then I was driven pissed off again when he doesn't even notice that he was actually the one who makes your mood swings for the whole day? To make up everything is just simple. All you need to say is just a word. SORRY. But that comes after a day when he doesn't even realized what kind of things is he asking for apologize. To be honest, I don't like this kind of communication. I was expecting that he should have known what happen on me etc, but that doesn't just works like that I guess. 

To be frank, going through over this thing, I've learnt something which is called the eternal love. :) That is between you, the servant and your God. I was crying hard when I realized this. From the moment when I feel that I was seeking to much attention from His creation, His words do really make me feel contented. SubhanaAllah, I was crying extra hard when I heard the Quran recitation. At this point again, I know I failed to make Him as my only One. I was paying too much attention to make other people pleased with me, but not you, ya Allah. I was sitting back, opened the Quran, and found that Allah says:

"When my sevants ask you about Me, then (tell them that) I am near. 

I respond to the call of one when he prays to Me; so they should respond to Me,

and have faith in Me, so that they may be on the right path."

Al baqarah : 186

I know that whoever asks Allah for forgiveness, he/she would be forgiven by Allah.

But who am I decided not to forgive people? Because the servants of Allah who has so many sins yet He still forgive them. Allah, I know that I have so many weakness, so many obstacles so many things to try to get rid off the jahiliyyah inside of  me just for struggling and trying to be your perfect servant with imperfections. 

I am overwhelmed with this eternal love :')

Faith that keeps you awake.

After about 5 months leaving Malaysia and starting back to build my 2nd year now in Adelaide, tonight I just feel like writing, expressing myself. Despite of having my busy and cramp scheduled here, writing would be one of the ways on relaxing and keep myself clam. Alhamdulillah, I went through two tests this morning. That were physiology and biochemistry. I was keep on feeling steady and stable after went over my  1st test this morning but not after Biochemistry because what I was expected to have was not what I expected to come. I don't know whether I can really survive with this subject or not this semester. To meet up with my sponsorship's requirements is not that easy. Being a scholarship student is not that easy because you would then come to the point that, 

"I HAD ENOUGH. NOW, I WANT TO QUIT

&

BE A HOUSEWIFE."

FULLSTOP

-.-

I then realized that in this life, there is no such easy things. When life has so many levels that you need to endure, this is just the simple tests that Allah has put you to go through. Because Allah once said that,

"Do people think that they will be 

left (at ease) only on their saying,

"we believe" and will not put you to any test?"

The Holy Quran : Al-Ankaboot

[29:2]

When you claimed that yourself is the believer, Allah will put you into several tests. At this point Allah wants to test you whether you keep going and rely on Allah 100%. Allah creates us and whoever knows us better than Him? He mentions that he is closer that our jugular veins in Quran, and he knows whatever thoughts our inner self develops but yet He still loves to hear us making du'a to Him. Because we sometimes never even spent time with Him yet He still waits for us to talk to him. :( Sometimes, I feel like I'm being harsh to this divine and pure relationship as it is a relationship between you, yourself and your Lord. The one who owns you at the first place. The one that you should say that, "All of me, Love all of You". But yeah, it is always me who failed on concentrating on You, yet You never fail to protect and ensure that everything that happens on my everyday life stays and falls on the right place. After all, I know that your blessings always overpowers everything. SubhanaAllah, life is indeed a game. It just whether you win or lose on this battle.

Dear Allah, 

Keep on guiding me because,

I want to love you as much as You love me. 

Counting the days.

It's Wednesday.

Currently I have 5 days left. I'm going back. Soon :'(

Half of my things are already packed to bring to my second home. Since I have this Melayu tongue so much on food, so mom did pack udang kering, ikan masin & asam keping for his daughter. haha. Imagine how I was last year. I was craving on lots of thing. The feeling is so different on a week at adelaide waiting to touch down Kuala Lumpur last time. I went over too excited and packed my things inside a week early.

And yet this time, I did everything on the very last minute. But it's allright. I'm looking forward to meet the freshman of my uni. I heard that there are many Malaysians are coming over this year but I'm too sure, too sure that none of them would be under my course. -,-'

Anyways, welcome Adelaidean 2014. Ahlan Wa Sahlan. :)

Say Hello to Adelaide Hills :)

The Marriages.

I am not yet turning 21 years old. But still, now I feel old when my friend is already MARRIED.

okay, I'm excited? YES.

So ever since my holidays here, I've witnessed 4 married couples completing half of their deen. Alhamdulillah, I am happy for them. Witnessing the wedding vow is so much interesting. It is pretty much touches my heart when I watched my dad and the groom-to-be cited it together. It feels that dad has given the full responsibilities to my brother in law to take care of his daughter. In Islam, as the daughter is already married, her priority should be her husband first, then her mom in law, then only her parents after Allah & Rasulullah. So I was freak out a bit and thinking not to have too many daughters once I get married, so I wont feel so much left out. Haha.

Well, my wedding invitations started with the wedding of my sister Syakira. I touched down Kuala Lumpur on 21st November 2103, and the big day was on 23rd November. So I was a little bit hectic after staying up late and struggle on my final examination. I looked exhausted on that day and my first night was not really good. I can't sleep because it is too hot even I turned on the air-cond on its lowest degree. The good things about her wedding is that I was able to meet my best buddies during high school. So they turned out to Kuala Kangsar and sleepover for 2 days at my house. Since the workload are quite heavy, we have extra man powers imported from them and my other sisters' friends. Tabarakallah sweetheart for the help. May Allah rewards you with goodness :)

My wedding list was followed by my 2 cousins one from my dad's side and the other was on my mom's side. Now that I feel having a large family members is a need, we were quite busy preparing, discussing on things and stuffs on their wedding day. I was appointed to be the master of the ceremony on that day. Well, I haven't be one for quite so long and I noticed I was shaking a bit at the beginning but managed to settle down myself.

Out of all, receiving a shocking news on my friend's wedding excites most of my batch-mates. I mean, this is just the 2nd month of 2014. Not even turn 21 yet. Why so sudden? Haha. Getting married at an early age is quite an option but when I started to think on the commitment I need to give, I think I would fail on being a good wife. Marriage is a big step in anyone's life. It's about responsibilities. You can't just get married if you like the person. For me, marriage is another journey to begin with. There is always option to end this journey which is divorce. But whoever wants to remarried for couple of times right. To have a safe and a marriage which last is to know why do you get married at the first place? It's a good start to lessen the overboard socialisation that occurred the ummah nowadays but that doesn't only the things. A good intention is to get married for Allah and from that I know the relationship between the husband and wife would be on the basis of Islam :)
May Allah guides us to the right path. Amin.

The Tsukushi family with the new family member. Welcome to the family, brother.

 

Fatin & her husband. They got married on June, but the reception was held on December.
Waiting for my arrival maybe? hehe

 

Shazwin Sofina, you are a wife already. T.T
Congratulations sayang! I still can't believe it. haha.

Does anyone else find it beautiful that if she is a man's key to paradise

in helping him fulfill half his deen with her in marriage

and that in attaining his pleasure through her life and obedience as his wife and a Muslimah.

He is her door to Jannah, the key that opens the doorthey need each other's help to get there. masha'Allah

 

Barakallahufikh.

May Allah bless.

Lillahitaala.

Goodbye 2013.

Assalamualaikum readers.

It's been two months that I have come back from Adelaide for my 3 months summer break. 3 weeks more left before going back to Australia. I know that it literally means I need to get ready for my cramp schedule back. But as Allah said, there is always ease after hardship. Never be afraid of what comes if your intention is always for Allah. Well, that is the most perfect motivation ever. When the thoughts of having the creator's attention out of the most, I am growing up with strength everyday.

"So Allah, please remind me to refresh my niat always if I am starting to put dunya first before You because this servant of Yours never get away from making mistakes."

Anyway, I would be departing back to Uni this end of February. 23rd Feb inshaaAllah. Being back in Malaysia, spending time with my family without worrying much of my assignments have really put a great momentum on me. So, second year of Biomedic, try me!

Bismillahirahmanirahim,
In the names of Allah, the most gracious and the most Almighty.
Shall I begin my 2014.

I know its already a month late to begin my 2014 but, the spirit is always be the matter :)

Dedicated to Mybrainsc-to-be scholars! ; Interviews.

Assalamualaikum buat pelajar pelajar mybrainsc-to-be! hehe, excited tak? =)

Ramai sangat yang bertanya pasal interview ni so here is one post  for you guys. Maaf sekarang baru ada masa  nak tulis pasal interview. sibuk skit sebelum ni. sekarang pun sibuk jugak sebenarnya,  lagi seminggu je nak exam ni. hehe, tp luangkan masa sikit utk ummah apa salahnya kan? ^^

Okey so hmm where to start ek? ini antara soalan soalan yang selalu sy terima through fb ;

1) awak mmg apply untuk uni Adelaide or mybrainsc bg biasiswa oversea dulu baru apply Adelaide ?

2) berapa bnyk mybrainsc bg ea? Dengar kata lagi banyak dari jpa.uu

3) masa interview apa jenis soalan panel tanya? Critical thinking or biasa je

4) kwn sy ckp kalu ipta nnti sambung ukm. Betul ke?

Jawapan saya ;)

1) awal2 lg masa isi form, kpt dh suruh isi u mana yg kte nk so sy apply uni melbourne. Lepas dpt biasiswa baru sy apply uni adelaide sbb masa sy buat registration requirement utk uni melbourne kena ada ielts sbb tu sy switch uni. Kira sy apply utk biasiswa oversea dan ditawarkan biasiswa oversea baru sy apply uni adelaide :)

2) sy dpt 980$ utk sebulan. Sama je mcm jpa. Tp elaun2 lain pun ada jugak mcm pkaian panas&buku&perkakas etc. kalau student dlm negara dapat elaun laptop skali rasanya ^^

3) interview lbh kepada soalan yg santai2 je. Mcm sy dulu dy tanya kenapa awk plih uni melbourne. What is the difference n similarities between a cook n a scientist etc. soalan dy dwibahasa. dlm english ada n bahasa melayu

4) oh takde la. byk je u ipta yg dy taja. Rasanya most of the univ kt msia. Kira kalau awk nk blaja kt ipta utk tawaran yg awk dpt masa result upu kluar, awk pastikan course yg awk mintak tu course pure sc la. lepastu awk boleh submit trus offer letter univ kt kpt.


Ramai jugak yg bertanya interview nanti mcm mana, so interview waktu tu saya masuk 3 orang sekali. bahasa pun dia pakai dwibahasa. ada masa yang dy Tanya dalam bahasa inggeris dan ada masa yang dy Tanya dalam bahasa melayu. jadi sy sarankan supaya jawab dalam bahasa yg dy Tanya tu okey. yang penting be confident and be yourself je. kadang kadang interviewer nk tgk cara kita berfikir je sbb soalan soalan yg ditanya masa hari tu :

1) why do u choose Melbourne and why do u choose biology?
2) what's going on when my name is Wan and my dad's name is Meor. How do you get that wan in front of your name?
3) ceritakan pasal diri awak? [ in this case korang boleh cerita achievements korang. dulu masa skolah mcm mana. basically cerita pasal qualities yg ada kt korang supaya dorang boleh Nampak yg ruginyalaa mybrainsc ni kalau tak pilih korang! hehe ]
4) what is the difference and similarities between a cook and a scientist?

ni antara soalan sy masa interview dulu. saya tak tau if sekarang format dah lain ke kan. harap dapat membantu awak awk semua untuk interview. yang penting banyak banyak berdoa okey? Rezeki Allah kita tak tau mcm mana. Keep calm and relax! Ohh lupa pulak, nnti masa interview nnti jangan lupa pakai smart2 taw. pakai la pkaian formal dan berkasut. kalau perempuan awk boleh pkai kasut yg bertumit skit and gelap kot utk Nampak lebih professional. :)

Maaf Nur Nadhirah, saya pinjam soalan awk ni

untuk bantu kawan-kawan yang lain. ;)



Ps : Doakan saya dah nak exam next week. Huu, rasa nak nangis laju laju nih T.T Good luck jugak untuk korang ea. Harap segala segalnya dipermudahkan oleh NYA utk kita. =)

High Distiction in the making? In shaa Allah.

Assalamualaikum.

It's still new in the morning. Good morning peeps! :)
So here it goes, my first post in Australia. Perhh, berkurun tak update blog. Well, this is due to the matter of  the internet service here. I couldn't argue more that services here in Australia is so slow yet expensive! Makanya, dah dekat satu sem baru la boleh berjimba dengan internet. Barulah boleh happy updates, online FB pakai laptop bagai kan. Rasa nak menangis dan rasa yang sangat terharu bila dah dapat internet connection dekat rumah ni taw. Kalau tak wifi uni Adelaide tu je la yang sangat membantu. Okay, enough for the introduction. =='

Well, The main big, bigger, biggest point is : I'M GOING TO HAVE MY FINAL EXAM FOR THIS SEMESTER AND IT'S A MONTH TO GO. *Nak nagis laju laju, boleh tak? T.T

Allah, sentap betul rasa ni. Ujian betul dapat internet pulak dah dekat dekat nak exam ni kan. Banyak lagi benda tak cover. Tapi penyakit hati, malas dan suka buang masa ni asyik ada je. :(
Guane? Guane niii?

So, for those who's going to sit for the exam, best of luck for you guys. Well, I know I am not the only facing this goose bump alone. right? I hope. hehe. So to be an outstanding student, muslim/muslimah, this are a few tips I've got from the previous talk I went : HD for ummah.

1) Plan & Priority.
Set up your plans and know which is your priority. You are the representative for islam and for the country as well. :)

2) Have a quality time & rise your efforts for jihad!
Set in mind that studying is also a part of your Ibadah.

 

'Dan barang siapa yang menjalani satu jalan untuk menuntut ilmu, nescaya Allah mudahkan baginya satu jalan kepada syurga' (Hadith Riwayat Muslim)

 

3) Ensure you have a great mind, health and spiritual.

Let's grow the Islamic values inside you! So, no matter how you stress out, take it relax and calm. SMILE. You know that Allah is always with you, aren't you? :)

 

4) Prosperous faith & be an outstanding caliph of Allah too.

Remember that the success you have achieved, isn't yours. It's from Allah. No matter how good you are at the subjects, how you never fail the test, how good you are in those experiments and lab, and all of them come from Allah. And if He doesn't want to give it to you, He won't. Thus, never tired of asking through du'a because He never tired giving. So, why should we give up on him?

 

'Which favours of your Lord will you deny?'

 

(The Holy Quran : Ar-Rahman - The most gracious)



 



Banyakkan berdoa ya sahabat. And also, tawakal. Never ever underestimate the power of du'a. Rahmatnya sangat luas. Love Him and He would love you back. Trust me. Moga bermanfaat.

Jom buat ibadah sama-sama! Nak bukak buku bio. =)

 

From Adelaide, with love..