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Tuesday, December 22, 2009

My heart cries.

ok. hari ni rse sedeh gler. geram pon ade. unexpectedly, the most person that i trust da bley jd untrusworthy including him. hish! rse xpuas hati je sjak 2menjak neh. asl la dorg bleyh ckp aku mcm nie. trok sgt ke what im telling her? ok now, lepas n. i wont tell them what happen. my triumphs or anything that is related to me, i wont. ttbe tpk plak... i want to keep my result as a secret for him.hehe. bia laa...sedeh n skit aty gler tau. kalo bleh rse mcm xnk ctct dy langsung. hurmm..arhh..sedih3.

n satu lagi..kenape stiap kali bler hang ngn dy aku rse low confident.? low confident sgt2. especially when it comes to my dress up... hurm..i know his taste dy mcm mane. his ex before this bergaya sgt. the way her choose her blouse.tshirt.shoes.beg.everything seems ryte. aku plak? sandal pon xde. tue pon cilok selipar kk ngah.kdg2, aku kuar pon pkai selipar g jmban hostel.sluar yg nmpk elok skit utk kuar jln? tue suar kak ngah. tshirt yg aku pkai pon kdg2 kene kritik ngn dy.besa sgt la ape laa..pastue, akk dy plak kate ak nk g hiking...??haiyoo..hah, lg la agk terase.xpe2..pasni aku pkai beg hiking instead of beg sandang ak. fyi, im good at jungle trekking ok? bape tinggi pon ak leh daki.huhu.my ak jenis yg lasak n ske aktiviti yg mcm tue turns me to this.kdg2 org tgk ak pon xcye ak leh jungle trekking n men hoki.haha. ok, aku bkn hidup sophisticated sgt mcm dorg. nk pkai jeans pon ak tanye diri ak dlu.btol ke nk pkai nehh??act, aku xkesah sgt.boleh je nk pkai.tp kene tutup la region yg sensored tuh.huhu.xpe la.pasni ak improve dress aku depan dy.crik baju shappy gler pnye!jeans plak lg sendat ag bgus!hurmm..kalo nk kuar ngn sabir pkai la ape pon he'll love it.kdg2, rindu plak nk kuar ngn dy.huhu...gurau2 ngn dy.hik..xpnh nk rse sedeh or anything. kalo ak pkai selipar jmban kuar ngn dy, kteorg leh gelak2 lg. huhu.tue la beza org yg idop kt kg n kt bndar yg da moden sgtt tueh.aku nk org yg btol2 xksah n proud with my appreance xspecially my dress. kdg2, aku penat jage hati sendiri. dpn dorg aku buat bodo jea.buat xde pape.slah aku jgak sal nk tunjuk bguss sgt dpn dorg.tp ak bkn jenis yg terhegeh2 nk mrjuk or marah xtntu psl.ak kene ctrl emosi n jdik rasional. tp bler satu mende yg de reason tuk aku btul2 mrh, smea mende yg ak da lpe n wat xksah aku kesah terus. huhu.tue la aku.complicated an?bia laa..smpy sekarang hati aku xok lg..and bler ak tau plak dorg 3org jdik shbt? haaaaaahh...??what the hell??!?arh ! g buat aku bengang. mende laa..bler org tanye?scret2.xde ape2..ohhhh...shitttnyeee...cm taik btol!!ey2, len kali ada ape2..jgn bg tau ak lngsng ok? ak xnk dgr lah...xnk, xnk la!!! sbuk2 nk cter nk mnx permission dlu bwat ape?hah, ak nk text or cll spe2 pon kalo leh ak xnk btau dy da.ye la.secret an.mane ade ape2.bru puas aty..tp kalo ak nk puas aty lg, xyh msg2 or cntct kwn ak tue da. bleh? :) bru aku oke sket kot.tp sket je.hahaha.ak xnk tunjuk ak marah ke ape ke kt dy...nehh pon ak nk cbe utk tenang kn dri aku.hishhhh!!!!geram btol la...n satu lagi wt ak leh tersenyum sket. sy*h da de prob ngn kk naII?haaaaaaa....puas aty gak ! hak3..jahatnye aku.nie lah jdiknye kalo ak btol2 da runsing n da tension!kdg2 sikap ak yg org kate,(org kate laaa) pnuh sopan santun n bek n leh jdik cm nie kalo ak tension.jd cm setan pon de.haha.gelak kt org sne snii..hurmmm,smpy ak tpk.break lg bgus.myb kejap je ak ngs n mende nieh xde la b'ulang da..huhu...ntah la.hati ak nieh rse skit sgt.rse mende tajam cucuk tau ark??hish, cm bangang la ak neh ! hish, byk dosa da ak kuar an pktaan nasty words byk sgt.ktuk org byk sgt...hahaha

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